OCD is making it hard for me to show affection. I have harm OCD and am disturbed by thoughts of hurting the ones closest to me. Recently it has been very hard for me to be affectionate with my significant other, or even contact my family or close friends back home. What’s even worse is I recently moved to a new area and now I really am having a hard time making friends. This thing blows.

Yes stress makes mine so much worse. And actually I want to move from Virginia to Florida i feel like a change of scenery will benefit me since I've been in Va my whole life pretty much. Plus my wife has family in Florida.

This is beautiful

Thank you so much, this made me feel a lot better I wasn’t seeking reassurance but it does help. I just keep digging myself deeper. This whole community is so great cause when I feel like I’m at a breaking point I make a post and you are all able to make me feel like a person again.

@TreyMan24 Absolutely! I have a soft spot in my heart for people suffering with Harm OCD. I felt alone for way too long. When it rears it's ugly head I still struggle some, but not like before. Instead of being on the defense, I decided to play offense to OCD. I'm using my journey and my struggles to help others. If I can help just one person realize they're not alone and they are strong and loved - then I've done my job and I'm okay with thr fact that I have Harm OCD. I may be diagnosed with it - but it doesn't define me. In a way I'm defiant to it. Because liars (OCD) hate people who tell the truth. So when you're able, be a truth teller and make your waves. Your impact will be tremendous. We all have a testimony to share and it doesn't make you weak, it makes you powerful. God bless you and your family! Have a wonderful day!

@kmecroz When u say rear its ugly head do you mean when the thoughts are uncontrollable? Do you have harm thoughts daily? I haven't fully come to terms that I have Harm Ocd I started recently asking the Lord to help me accept this.

@Dre83 So, thoughts are uncontrollable. I used to think that I could control them. Which made it worse because I would get mad at myself. Through the therapy sessions here with NOCD my counselor has taught me alot about how my brain works. We have an inner brain (our beliefs , it's very small) and our outer brain (highway brain - cannot control thoughts). Anyone and anything can put thoughts in your outer brain. I could tell you hey, you're eating strawberries tonight, and for a second - that's what you'll think about. You cannot control outer brain. Everyone (I truly mean this) EVERYONE has intrusive crazy thoughts that come into that highway brain. It's just with OCD, they 'stick' or bounce around. My issue now is I'll randomly feel anxious without thoughts and I'll remember 9 years ago (REALLY BAD) and I'll think omg, it's coming back. Through the years I've attributed an anxious feeling being associated with my harm OCD. Since you are spiritual, I'll tell you - THE BIBLE IS WHERE IT'S AT. Man. Jesus heals- there is power in His name. My favorite scripture says, "For God did not give us a spirit of fear, but of power and love and a sound mind." Sound mind also translated in some editions to self control. I repeated that until I felt and knew it was true. When intrusive thoughts come in, I rebuke them in the name of Jesus- (I mentally say that to the thought) and let Him handle it. I don't dwell on it. Like I said my fight now is if I feel anxious I feel like its real or something - so I'm doing therapy to get over that aspect. The devil has lost the war. We as believers know how it ends. The enemy attacks you by trying to make you not enjoy your life because he knows he can't have you. Stand up to it. I feel for you. It's a journey for sure, but baby steps my friend - you will get to victory, it just takes time.

@kmecroz Thank you so much! I will definitely take note of what you said here. Dang 9 yrs you gotta be a strong person as I've only been dealing with this since May of this year.

@Dre83 You're welcome!! Anytime!! 9 years ago I had a massive attack that took months to get over. I've dealt with it on and off over the years. I just found out what it was (harm OCD) this year. So I felt alone for a very very long time. True story though - God works in mysterious ways. When I felt at my breaking point and just crying - I'd get a feeling to call someone or tell someone my story. Every single time I did - they told me they had the same thing. Through my struggles He reminded me I was never alone. Even in my worst moments - I was never ever alone. You're not crazy - you're human and in good hands. <3

@kmecroz Yes! God is good!