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“What if you don’t actually love your SO?” “What is you are not over your ex” “ex’s name at random times, and random memories” “what if you are a lesbian and faking it?”
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I made eye contact w someone at work yesterday n my brain is like "damn what do u love them or something? How can you do that when u have a bf?" Im like everytime i talk to someone we do this 😑 i literally dk this person
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I have a lot of person related ROCD. Where I question if he is stupid or morally questionable. It is awful. "He didnt reply the way he was supposed to, then he doesnt care about me and we shouldnt be together". Etc.etc
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Hi, I have ROCD. Currently one of my obsessions that I’m experiencing now is that I fear I’m attracted to my friend (him as a person and his personality) and that I possibly have strong feelings him. Out of everyone I know, I feel like he is most similar to me and I get along with him so easily. Even though I may feel this way, I love my partner very much and for the most part I enjoy spending time with him. My main fears have to do with fearing that my partner and I may be too different as well as plenty of other questions related to compatibility. Sorry for the long post! Just nice to share with someone
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Yea I’ve had this one too. Accepting the uncertainty of this things and putting it into more perspective helps me. For instance, when I think this way about friends I start to remember all the times I have been annoyed with them or irritated. Then I also remember how I am closer to my partner in a lot of ways. That means we will run into disagreements or seem different. It’s all a gray area, but you get to ultimately choose what you want to do.
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@sheridani Thank you, I appreciate that! It’s nice to know I’m not alone. We can beat this thing.
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@Shiba Inu No problem at all. I think we can get through this too! Have you started any ERP?
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@sheridani I have! It’s been helpful and my anxiety is no where near what it was like before. I still experience doubt and it’s been recurring. It’s so confusing... I feel completely at ease and in love with my partner and then complete doubt again and back and forth it continues. For some reason when my partner goes on monologues I experience intrusive thoughts and can’t help but cry when he does. This has happened many times even before I felt full blown rocd. I don’t know if this is a relationship issue or my obsession on flaws. It does seem to fit the pattern of the ocd cycle: intrusive thought->anxiety ->compulsion Just venting again.. Can you relate? Has Erp helped you?
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@Shiba Inu Yes I totally relate to everything you’ve said. Sometimes I’m just trying to enjoy myself and my mind will not shut up haha. I’ve found that ERP is working so far, but it has also felt like it had made things worse. Some thoughts I thought I was rid of coming back full force and the like. But I am also experiencing a lot more calm and clarity. It’s great !
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@sheridani That’s awesome! I’m really glad to hear that ERP overall has been helpful for you. I can relate too to feeling like I overcame some obsessions and then those obsessions coming back again. I will practice ERP and mindfulness more!
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I always worry if it "feels right". Or if I dont have something to talk about then we arent compatible. If he doesnt hold my hand he must not love me. Stuff like that.
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I relate to the "just right" feeling. It makes me pick apart everything we/he does. "So he didnt know what poloboloko is, he must be stupid and then we cant be meant to be together".
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So with my theme of ocd, ( hocd ) I get persistent intrusive images, and thoughts. It’s not like one or two a day. Like if I’m out for the whole day they’re constant. I feel I can’t even look at a girl now without her intrusive thoughts about her or about me fancying her and even sexual intrusive thoughts.. It’s awful. It’s everywhere I look. Is this common with ocd with any themes? Like is it constant for you guys too?
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I have just recently realized that I had SO OCD. This began whenever I was watching porn and had an intrusive thought about the guy in the porn. It was more minor at first, it was a majority of what I was thinking about throughout the day but it didn’t feel as distressing at first. If I had downtime to think about it, it would affect me but if I was just going about my day I wouldn’t notice it. I began going through the compulsions of checking myself. This lasted for a while until another obsession occurred. Then it seemed as if my SO OCD took a step back. I would have flare ups but they would seem to pass. Recently, I had a very bad night of constant compulsions and looking at pictures and imagining things to check myself. After that night it was very distressing, it affected me to the point where people around me began to notice and ask me if I was okay. One of the big reasons I was so upset was my girlfriend, we have been together for over 3 years and I want to spend the rest of my life with her. I was thinking “Oh my god, if I am gay I can never be with her.” I would sit and cry about it thinking I would lose her and that might life would change because I was gay. I finally had enough and talked to her and my parents. We did some research and I was so shocked to find out that I had a form of OCD, it was like a weight being lifted off my shoulders just knowing that other people have been where I am and that I’m not gay. However, I may have naively expected the compulsions and obsessive thoughts to go away now that I knew I had an actual problem. But I found that the compulsions and thoughts were still there and I was going to put some effort into getting better. I have researched and now know what to do when experiencing intrusive thoughts, yet I still have been performing the compulsions which is just feeding into the OCD. I find myself having intrusive thoughts and then start performing compulsions to see if they are true. What really bothers me is when I have an intrusive thought that tells me that I do like something. But when I think about it I have no desire to pursue those thoughts. However when I feed into the compulsions they just seem to feed into each other. It is like my OCD ignores all the things that I know I like and goes straight to panic mode. I am also trying to do ERP and am going to start doing my best to get better. Does anyone have any tips for not performing the compulsions no matter how anxious you are feeling and no matter how real the intrusive thoughts seem to feel?
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I am 15 years old and my POCD feels like its not POCD, i feel like i like my intrusive thoughts, but i have more intrusive thoughts about having intrusive thoughts, and i feel like i cant enjoy the things i normally enjoy anymore, like calling with my girlfriend and joking with her because this is still in the back of my mind, its making me question morals and if i ever even viewed P as completely wrong and i hate this so much, i love my nieces and nephews and when they're over i know id never do anything with my intrusive thoughts but when they arent present i feel like i like my thoughts. Before this i was dealing with HOCD and ROCD and i wish i could go back to that
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