hi everyone, I've suffered with harm ocd since my little girl was born 9 years ago. I also have fears about being a psychopath or narcissist. I've recently had a bad patch and my OCD has returned and it feels worse than ever. an intrusive thought I keep getting at the min is "everyone is the same, living the same life someone has to be bad else wouldbt the world be boring" it's like I fixate on what a psychopath might think and then my OCD makes me feel like it's me who wants that thought. I wasnt sure if it may be a but of existenial mixed with the harm OCD. I wasnt thinking like this a few weeks ago so why now does it feel so real 😔 wondering if anyone can relate?

thankyou for your reply, it's so mad how it can make you doubt everything about you character and what type of person you are. I've always fixated on my emotional response aswell as to make sure I'm feeling the right way and I've only tortured myself more because now I question everything and how I feel about everything and everyone. sorry to hear you suffer also it's just the worst!

@Kimberley* Your welcome ♡ , You aren't alone , and we'll go through this

did you find relief for your religious OCD? have you had any therapy? xxx

@Kimberley* I did. Once I knew it was my ocd it gave me comfort. Does that sound strange? I guess because I knew it was a lie.

@Emart no it doesnt sound strange at all I think it's great you have found relief from that. you see I'm the opposite at the moment worrying I dont actually have OCD even though I've suffered since being little. it's so exhausting. xxx

glad you are benefiting from therapy keep going with it 🥰 i have followed you on here so I can keep up with your progress ❤ I wish you all the best in your recovery. thankyou for your support. xxx

I'm not even married but , these thoughts are bc you love your daughter so much and you care about her , that's why these thoughts about your daughter

so sorry that you have to suffer also 😔 how long have you suffered for? xxx

@haxx Thank you. I've heard that before that the OCD knows what we care about thats what it attacks. Thats is so crazy.

@Kimberley* Its been 6 years off and on. Its been so hard.

@Emart Yea and I have OCD about what I love and what I care about

@Emart @Emart have you had any other forms of OCD or is it just the harm you have suffered with? sorry about all the questions its just comforting to hear of other peoples experiences similar to mine. xxx

yes I take medication also but I recently tried to come off which was a terrible idea and what I believe has caused this relapse. I'm currently on a waiting list for therapy. I'm looking to maybe go private as the wait for therapy is just too long. I've had CBT before and a few other therapies but nothing has stuck completely but I just have to keep trying I suppose. does your therapy help you? I hope it does. xxx