Ospyc016
- Date posted
- 6y
ZVBZVB
- Date posted
- 6y
I actually told my fiancé about it, a while back as well as last night we had a huge heart to heart about it and he’s very very supportive of me. It was hard for me to explain to him exactly what it was like because I felt so guilty and I did cry and break down a lot, but he’s understanding and very loving and understands that it’s only a phase in my life. I asked him afterwards if when I go to therapy if he’d join me so that the therapist could give him as well as I some more insight on the situation, but I feel more relieved when I can walk up to him and tell him that I had some bad thoughts but I overcame the anxiety attack quicker than usual. I think it very much depends on the partner in which you have, I can’t guarantee they will react the same way, but in my personal experience, I’m glad I discussed what was making me so depressed and he’s been my rock through this journey. I know that it’s hard to go through, especially with you’re head telling you that because you have these thoughts it means something, but keep to what you know is right, do what you know is right for you, if you know you love that person, keep loving them and fighting for them, because it’s kept me going knowing that if I acted on the thoughts I had, I’d lose him, and frankly that’s my biggest and worst fear. I hope it helps, I tend to babble but truly I hope it helps, I know how it is to feel so lost in it all.
beeeebeeee
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- 6y
^ I know it may be really hard right now but you can’t give up. Things will get better, we are all in this together and all really do understand what you’re going through and feel your pain. I just started going to a therapist and it helps to be able to talk about it with someone. Have you looked into that at all? Just know we are all here for you and things will get better
horriblelyfhorriblelyf
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- 6y
Yes... I also want to know
horriblelyfhorriblelyf
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- 6y
It's amazing ur partner is incredible.... It's really very difficult to discuss this nonsense.... I can't do that... Never.... Never.... I am giving up... Guys... Can't tolerate this I was not like this... I was the most happening and romantic person ever in my life.... But this hocd has taken my soul.... I just hate it... I hate every body... Except my parents.... Only because of them... I m surviving
horriblelyfhorriblelyf
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- 6y
Thanks frnd... When I know i am straight still thinking about it... It sucks... It creates huge career loss... I just wanna enjoy my previous self.. At one tym I thought I will not think about it.. I am fine but all sudden a thought arises no...... If it's really simple..... Then why u r receiving such kind of thought... No one else facing such thoughts around me... Plz help
beeeebeeee
- Date posted
- 6y
I know it’s really hard, OCD makes zero sense and just when you think you’re doing ok, a wave of it can bring back bad thoughts. We just gotta keep just accepting the thoughts rather than trying to fight them, even if it’s initially super difficult. Also, other people do face similar thoughts, we just fight them and give power to them due to our OCD. I’m not going to give any reassurance on your specific thoughts and or situation, just here to support and listen if you need to vent. I’m here for ya.
horriblelyfhorriblelyf
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- 6y
Thanks... Seriously i have stopped talking to many ppl... Although I was the most chirpy nd humorous person earlier... And the worst part ppl think that I have attitude and ego.. How to explain them what I m facing... I so depressed
beeeebeeee
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- 6y
Ya I feel you there, I definitely feel like I’m not at all my former fun, social self and it sucks. But we have to have confidence and believe that things will get better. Also, I recommend meditation and mindfulness in general
horriblelyfhorriblelyf
- Date posted
- 6y
Most horrible theme of ocd... Hocd
horriblelyfhorriblelyf
- Date posted
- 6y
I am really giving up
beeeebeeee
- Date posted
- 6y
Have you looked into a therapist? I really recommend it. There are programs out there to help - we need ERP (exposure) and CBT (cognitive) to help us
horriblelyfhorriblelyf
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- 6y
No one is understanding here.... I went to phycatarist
beeeebeeee
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- 6y
I still recommend therapist again or ocd specific program or group ocd therapy. It’s different than psychiatrist and helpfil
horriblelyfhorriblelyf
- Date posted
- 6y
U just tell only one thing... Can sexual orientation changes... I just don't wanna change
horriblelyfhorriblelyf
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- 6y
Why it feels real
beeeebeeee
- Date posted
- 6y
I can’t give reassurance - I’m sorry. It hurts OCD in the long run. Just know ocd makes our thoughts feel real because we fight it
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jwall2.0
- Date posted
- 17w
Looking for HOCD / SO OCD advice
Hi all, I deal with HOCD and been seeing a therapist for about 3.5 months. It has definitely got better but still affects me very much. Was wondering there is anyone out there who has dealt with HOCD as well and has recovered. I would love to message or even chat just see how your experience was and hear what was beneficial to you.
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