Hey so Ive been smoking weed for about a year now. however, I have developed CHS from smoking so much and have just started to stop smoking. (CHS causes me to throw up non stop until I get dehydrated and have to go to the ER) ever since I stopped smoking I have been having really bad intrusive thoughts about harming myself, animals, and my girlfriend. I think I subconsciously was smoking so much to block all of these thoughts out and ever since I stopped they have been really bad. My thoughts get worse at night and often are really scary because I know I would never do these things and that I’m a good person at heart. Any advice or help? I really hate these thoughts and often struggle with getting them out of my head. Any advice would be greatly appreciated!

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Date posted: 5y

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Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

Thanks so much!

hanajade

Date posted: 5y

I’m sorry to hear that. Have you tried doing therapy yet with an ocd specialist and have you considered taking medication as it can help to reduce your anxiety and some of your compulsions?

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

I take Zoloft 100mg, I’m looking into talking to a therapist in person as I often do better with that. Do you have any suggestions on what I can do now to try and get rid of these thoughts as they happen?

hanajade

Date posted: 5y

@Anonymous All you have to do is to sit with your thoughts and anxiety and not do any compulsions. This may seem hard but overtime you will realise that your thoughts are not real and you can be safe in those situations.

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

Thank you so much, I’ve been trying to work on that the sos function has been helping a lot I just get scared often from these thoughts and that they’ll come true. Also trying so hard not to smoke It’s so hard because sometimes it feels like that’s the only thing that’ll help.

hanajade

Date posted: 5y

Ocd can make us believe that our thoughts are real but in reality they are not. Ocd is a doubting condition. Instead of smoking maybe you could try meditation, using a diffuser, or going for a walk or doing something that makes you happy and relaxed.

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

@hanajade What does a doubting condition mean? Like I’m sorry for asking so many questions this is just my first time actually realizing what ocd is and trying to get help fixing it.

hanajade

Date posted: 5y

@Anonymous A doubting condition is when ocd makes you doubt everything about yourself and your thoughts. So the ocd likes to make you believe that your thoughts will come true but in reality they won’t. You are allowed to ask as many questions as you want. I only got diagnosed with ocd this year. We are all in the app because we suffer from the same conditions and we are all here to support people not to give up on their road to recovery.

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

@hanajade Thanks so much

Just another...

Date posted: 5y

Hey man I smoked weed every single day (multiple times a day) for 5 years so I can completely understand where you are at. If the smoke is what is causing you the issue and you feel like the effects of THC helps you then I suggest a different way of consuming it. If you live in a state where medicinal marijuana is legal I suggest you get your medical card and go to a local dispensary. They have anything from sublingual oils to capsules. I used this for a while because it was the only thing that helped my anxiety but it got to a point where I realized that weed had already given me what it had to give me and now it was often causing me to get lost in my thoughts and was making my OCD worse. Quitting was hard but I feel like it was the right thing for me but I also understand the healing it brought me when I needed it. I wish you inner peace my friend

Healingjourney

Date posted: 5y

Agreed u can consume thc in a different for or try cbd. The work books and journaling may help at nights

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