- Date posted
- 4y
- Date posted
- 4y
don’t worry you’re not a monster, the fact that you feel bad and regret it shows that you’ve grown as a person, what you did was wrong but it doesn’t define who you are as a person today we all make mistakes what’s important is to realize and accept that we’re fallible human beings and grow and learn from our wrong doings!
- Date posted
- 4y
do you think this is soemthing i should condemn myself forever for?
- Date posted
- 4y
@irllydislike absolutely not! in fact you shouldn’t condemn yourself at all, what’s done is done all you can do is accept that it happened and forgive yourself and focus on being a good person in the now. I dealt with real event OCD for months and i felt like i could never forgive myself but then i read about unconditional self acceptance and it helped me so much, it’s basically just you accept that you did something wrong but you don’t let it define you, the act you did was wrong but you’re not a bad person because of it. So don’t dwell on it and don’t punish yourself it’s okay, ocd often amplifies our wrong doings and make them seem like a super big deal when in reality they aren’t.
- Date posted
- 4y
@cherryCAKE I feel like OCD is magnifying my latest mistakes that I didn't want to happen at all. A few days ago I was on instagram looking through my search feed and saw a family guy meme that I thought was funny, though I don't really like the show. I looked through the comments and saw a few profiles commenting similar things to each other and I thought it was silly in a good way. I clicked on one of them thinking they were a meme page but the first post I see that they had was CP... I had reported the post and left instagram that day feeling disgusting. I felt like it was my fault because if I didn't click on the profile I would've never saw it. I never wanted to see something like that and I feel like it was my problem for even clicking on the page. The other mistake happened on youtube where I searched for girls my age which was 18 one night but comments kept saying they weren't 18 but some said they were so I felt lied to and I felt like I just found videos that included underaged people when I didn't want them to. I only wanted to find girls my age on there because I'm attracted to girls my age and got a little bored of typical girls over aged. It sounds stupid but I feel more happy when I see people my exact age going through similarities as I am. It's dumb. One other mistake was similar to the instagram mistake only this time on a legal porn site. I don't know if it's false memory or magnified but just as I was finished browsing the porn, I had seen something that looked too disturbing, too incorrigible, too horrifying on the site. OCD is making it seem like I wanted this to happen, I can't be forgiven, or that there's something I'm not getting. There is one mistake I did intentionally make and it had to do with sexually exploring with other teens I made friends with online and it just makes me feel like I crossed a line and I can't forgive myself sometimes. When I talk about it to myself or with others I can see that I made those mistakes with good intent or no intent at all but when I think about them endlessly I feel more and more terrible and feelings of being ostracized are always present.
- Date posted
- 4y
@BigGip09 i did the same thing in regards to my peers when i was 18
- Date posted
- 4y
@irllydislike What? The sexual exploring? For me it all started when I was 15
- Date posted
- 4y
@irllydislike Also this is what magnification was talking about in the real event OCD article: that it's likely that someone else has made the same mistake as me
Related posts
- Date posted
- 21w
17f I have a lot of events, but my main and my worst one which is absolutely fucking diabolical was done when I was 14 and repeated when I was 16. Everytime I post something about real event ocd here people are like you are probably didn't do anything that bad, and when they hear what I did they are like yeah that's bad. Someone even asked me if I'm autistic cause "it's crazy how you didn't realize that the thing ypu were doing was wrong at this age." And I kinda agree, like it's fucked up It's just that my event is bad. Doesn't mean I don't have real event ocd. You can have a reocd over the event that was bad, it doesn't mean the event wasn't that bad or you don't have recod. It's just people always expect it to be something innocent and it's not Even a healthy person would feel guilty over it, it's just that I had ocd my whole life and it's making the guilt absolutely destructive, like to the point when I sometimes have a hard time breathing when I think about it, I lost more than a year of life to it, almost checked myself out couple of times if I wasn't so scared of pain/failure, the event haunts me in my dreams, it's in my head 24/7 and I will never able to forgive myself. That ocd. But the event itself was bad. So maybe i deserve it.
- Date posted
- 17w
when I was 15 soon to turn 16, I met this girl in a IG group chat made by our mutual friends. We started talking and eventually we started flirting and talking sexual towards each other, though eventually we stopped talking because she was being really weird. A couple months later In July of 2024 my friend found out that she was actually 13 and that she lied to me about her age. It's been 10 months since l've found out and I still feel so disgusted in myself. I had my suspicions at the time but I let them go since she said she was 16 turning 17. I was completely oblivious trusting someone I only knew online especially since i've never seen their face either. i'm struggling on what to do since i've been suffering with POCD since I was 15. Till this day I still feel weird and disgusted in myself because of that. But it feels ironic since i'm sexualizing someone that's 2 years younger than me and I waited to confirm she was around my age range to sexualize her. I feel so weird and guilty about it idk what to do
- Mid-life adults with OCD
- Parents of OCD kids
- Students with OCD
- Young adults with OCD
- POCD
- Real Events OCD
- Date posted
- 16w
Ok, so when I was in high school I became very obsessive with love. I didn’t love myself and I found this boy who I wanted to love me. I had myself convinced we would get married. He didn’t even know who I was and I’ll admit, I completely invaded his privacy. I memorized his schedule, I put myself in places I knew he’d be or if I knew he was somewhere I’d go. I truly never meant harm, I just wanted him to love me and I thought that me stalking his life would get me into it and get him to love me. It got to the point where I even stalked other girls I thought he liked and told them that we were a “thing” so that they would stop talking to him even though we were definitely not a thing. I struggle to release the guilt of that overall because I feel so so so awful about it, but I know I never meant harm. Anyways, now that we are no longer together, I have this fear that if he never would’ve given me the attention I desired that I would’ve kept going. I would’ve started to get harmful and that I would’ve gone as far as harming people around him in order to get myself into his life. It makes me feel so awful but I truly do feel like I would’ve kept going and kept myself in his life even if he would’ve gotten a different girlfriend. Idk, I just really struggle because I don’t feel as though this was ocd and that maybe I truthfully am a horrible person who does need serious help because I stalked him so much and obsessed over him and crossed his privacy boundary. I’m so afraid to the extent that I would’ve gone had it not become us dating.
Be a part of the largest OCD Community
Share your thoughts so the Community can respond