REAL EVENT OCD: when I was 15/16 I kissed a girl I had a thing with even after she told me not to (i had never kissed anyone before and her best friend was texting me saying she was into me, just shy). I feel like shit. We remained friends for awhile after but broke things off when she became toxic and threatening to kill herself if I hadn’t stayed friends with her. haven’t talked in 10+ years as we ended on bad terms (unrelated). Am I a Monster?

do you think this is soemthing i should condemn myself forever for?

@irllydislike absolutely not! in fact you shouldn’t condemn yourself at all, what’s done is done all you can do is accept that it happened and forgive yourself and focus on being a good person in the now. I dealt with real event OCD for months and i felt like i could never forgive myself but then i read about unconditional self acceptance and it helped me so much, it’s basically just you accept that you did something wrong but you don’t let it define you, the act you did was wrong but you’re not a bad person because of it. So don’t dwell on it and don’t punish yourself it’s okay, ocd often amplifies our wrong doings and make them seem like a super big deal when in reality they aren’t.

@cherryCAKE I feel like OCD is magnifying my latest mistakes that I didn't want to happen at all. A few days ago I was on instagram looking through my search feed and saw a family guy meme that I thought was funny, though I don't really like the show. I looked through the comments and saw a few profiles commenting similar things to each other and I thought it was silly in a good way. I clicked on one of them thinking they were a meme page but the first post I see that they had was CP... I had reported the post and left instagram that day feeling disgusting. I felt like it was my fault because if I didn't click on the profile I would've never saw it. I never wanted to see something like that and I feel like it was my problem for even clicking on the page. The other mistake happened on youtube where I searched for girls my age which was 18 one night but comments kept saying they weren't 18 but some said they were so I felt lied to and I felt like I just found videos that included underaged people when I didn't want them to. I only wanted to find girls my age on there because I'm attracted to girls my age and got a little bored of typical girls over aged. It sounds stupid but I feel more happy when I see people my exact age going through similarities as I am. It's dumb. One other mistake was similar to the instagram mistake only this time on a legal porn site. I don't know if it's false memory or magnified but just as I was finished browsing the porn, I had seen something that looked too disturbing, too incorrigible, too horrifying on the site. OCD is making it seem like I wanted this to happen, I can't be forgiven, or that there's something I'm not getting. There is one mistake I did intentionally make and it had to do with sexually exploring with other teens I made friends with online and it just makes me feel like I crossed a line and I can't forgive myself sometimes. When I talk about it to myself or with others I can see that I made those mistakes with good intent or no intent at all but when I think about them endlessly I feel more and more terrible and feelings of being ostracized are always present.

@BigGip09 i did the same thing in regards to my peers when i was 18

@irllydislike What? The sexual exploring? For me it all started when I was 15

@irllydislike Also this is what magnification was talking about in the real event OCD article: that it's likely that someone else has made the same mistake as me