What do you do if an ocd specialist doesn’t think it’s ocd? I’m in the midst of booking an appointment but I’m scared that I’m just making myself feel like this. I don’t think liking girls is bad at all, but all of my primary attractions have been towards men my entire life. I don’t even care if I’m bi, I just don’t want to lose my attraction to men altogether.

aurokoi

Date posted: 4y

Like this has turned my life completely upside down and things I thought I knew about myself and was really secure in - my attraction, my gender identity- feel like all of a sudden I don’t know them at all. I was doing so well last year and I never had a thought like this and I don’t think there’s been a day since this really showed up (in august) that I haven’t thought about it. I feel so unhappy because it’s seeping into my friendships as well and ahhhhhh

brendas77

Date posted: 4y

Deep breaths! It will all work out, it might take work, but believe in yourslef and know that ithers believe in you! Deep breaths!

aurokoi

Date posted: 4y

@brendas77 Thank you 🥺❤️ it’s just scary. I’m scared. It’s like I literally don’t know who I am anymore

tal

Date posted: 4y

I am sitting in all of this with you 💗 I have my first appointment with an OCD specialist this week and am just Waiting to be told it’s not OCD but from talking to others with it, the fear that it’s not ocd is an obsessive thought in and of itself. I am bi but I’ve really struggled with gender identity obsessions lately despite having full confidence in my identity my whole life until a few months ago. This is such a hard theme. We’ve got this!!

aurokoi

Date posted: 4y

I’m rooting for you 🥺❤️ the gender identity obsession literally rocked my world, it’s so painful. I’ve always been okay with the thought of ‘maybe in the future I will like girls’ and that never bothered me because I was like hey future me knows what future me wants but I always knew at least my attraction to men was a yes, because I just thought about them so much more than women. But the thought of only liking women seems so bizarre to me because... I’ve always wanted men??? It’s so difficult. Thinking about either gender just makes me anxious at this point, which really sucks 😭 I hope your appointment goes well!!!!

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Date posted: 4y

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brendas77

Date posted: 4y

Take some deep breaths and have faith in yourself.

aurokoi

Date posted: 4y

First off I’m so sorry!!! I didn’t realise I didn’t put the trigger warning (I always do for all my other posts). I wish I had comforting words but I’m afraid too. Sometimes I feel like my heart is going to break from it. But all we can do is explain our symptoms at the end of the day. Only we know what’s going on in our heads and what feels most natural to us. I really hope you’re feeling better. I’m in your discord server I think so if you need to talk you can shoot me a message!!

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