Hi I'm new to this app. I was diagnosed with severe anxiety disorder and OCD about 5 years ago. Following a very recent break up, coping with being a frontline healthcare worker in the current pandemic, moving house amongst other things I'm really struggling... Looking for some support really as I don't know who to turn to right now

You should really talk with a therapist or call the suicide hotline

I struggle with really intrusive thoughts, like I'll think that someone is really mad at me for whatever reason so I will text and ring them until I know for sure everything is fine. It's driving everyone crazy and I am exhausted. I need some help on how to change the way I think maybe or a technique I can use to make the thoughts pass....

How do yup deal with anxiety and OCD when it gets really bad? Like during stressful times.

I really don't know to be honest. I cry alot. I shout at my ex alot and then will call back over apologising. It's a vicious circle really. I get a thought in my head and have to act on it straight away. That's why I downloaded this app in the hope that when this happens I could speak to someone to help it pass so I don't keep calling or texting. I'm driving myself crazy. I have plenty to live for but the thoughts in my head make me want to finish it so I am at peace

I have a hard time letting go of the things I’ve done to others. I feel such guilt over it all. I then go thru OCD thoughts of punishing myself.

I’m trying to learn how to deal with the guilt. It sounds like you have that same guilt theme issue

It's horrendous. Why can't I just let go. It's like I'm still clinging on to him even tho he doesn't want me.

I hear you. I was stuck on someone and thought they were perfect. I still can’t get over them years later. I realized that some people are not a good fit. You cannot make a relationship work. It comes naturally. It is not you. It’s just not the right person. I married someone who deals with my ocd and helps me. He doesn’t try to make me feel like I’m a burden or that it is inconvenient.

If he couldn’t deal with the ocd. Then he is not good for you.

You need people to recognize that a mental issue is just as disabling and painful as physical

The crazy thing is I know I'm better off without him he controlled every aspect of my life there was alot of emotional abuse towards me. But now I'm left still loving him even tho I know he's no good for me... I'm going out of my mind

Just repeat. I deserve better.

It is tough. But OCD makes you believe that you are not amazing. That is why you are calling and apologizing. You put everyone on a pedestal. How many faults did your ex have that you brushed off or he did and you forgave him?

Can you not forgive yourself?

I felt like with my OCD, I gave so many passes and accepted to be treated like crap by so many people. I realized I purposefully dated people and forgave them for their faults because they ‘put up’ with me and my OCD.

See this is the thing I know I did nothing wrong, he always did things to hurt me but I literally worshipped the ground he walked on even through the cheating etc.. I was stupid I know

You cannot help that you have OCD. This is something we don’t want, but we have it. You have to find someone who accepts this part of you.

Exactly. I know all of these things but still it takes over me and my mind and my thoughts. I hate it I really do. It makes me very suicidal

You have to rationalize it now. That he was not good for you. That is the best way.