can someone help me with this? i have trouble with ocd thoughts but only when they’re connected to actual psychical feelings or especially groinals :( like for example, if i move too much or smthn while having a groinal and having the thought that the feeling is connected to someone i overthink on if it is sexual then or if i actually do wanna do something sexual when i don’t want to smdkdkd i want to do erp but i don’t really know how to go about it i’ve never seen anyone with this problem and i’m too embarrassed to talk to my therapist about it

Mikeee

Date posted: 4y

Okay first take a deep breath cause we will figure it out. don’t be embarrassed to tell you’re therapist you’re thoughts don’t make you who you are could you explain a little more please I’m kinda slow I apologize😅

miss down ba...

Date posted: 4y

don’t worry don’t apologize! ty for the advice, basically i’m scared of the groinals being sexual since i have these thoughts constantly plus my ocd connects the feelings to people around me ( mostly my little brother ) which is also why i’m so scared about it

miss down ba...

Date posted: 4y

@saltedcrabs i’m sorry if this doesn’t make sense i don’t really know how to explain it :( i focus on the feeling aswell sometimes which my ocd used against me

miss down ba...

Date posted: 4y

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NOCDCreative1

Date posted: 4y

I am actually so glad someone put this into words. I've been struggling with the exact same issue. I feel guilty about it and try to convince myself that it's not a real emotion, I don't actually have the desire to perform the acts in my intrusive thoughts. But because there is a physical response, its quite confusing because in a weird way it feels like the sensation brings your thoughts in physical reality. It's harder to convince yourself it's not real

miss down ba...

Date posted: 4y

omg yea! i’m happy to see someone else who relates but sad at the same time D: this is the worse i would rather deal with any other theme than this

miss down ba...

Date posted: 4y

@saltedcrabs i don’t really know how to go about erp for it either since i’ve never seen anyone else mention this

NOCDCreative1

Date posted: 4y

@saltedcrabs It's very jarring when it happens and kinda alters your perception of things. Simple normal things can be turned sexual to me sometimes and I miss seeing the world in a way that feels clean sometimes

miss down ba...

Date posted: 4y

@NOCDCreative1 sameee :( it’s the worse i used to have harm ocd which literally made me have urges to hurt people and it wasn’t as distressing as this

NOCDCreative1

Date posted: 4y

I think that, for me, my intrusive thoughts directly conflict my personal values, and because many of them are sexual, the idea that I would want to perform those acts makes me doubt my own self-respect or pride. I feel.like this is why it's so distressing to me. I fear that I'll destroy myself in this way

miss down ba...

Date posted: 4y

oh that makes sense! for me, i think a lot about if other people could see my thoughts and how messed up that they are they’d think i’m actually a ped even though i’m not. but, the fact that my thoughts are so weird + the psychical sensations makes me think i’m atleast gross or weird

NOCDCreative1

Date posted: 4y

I don't think you're gross or weird, I guess that's mostly because I'm going through a very similar things. I think I've boiled it all down to the mind being a weird place in general. What I do to help myself in a small way is to try to identify what the fear is that my thoughts are based on, because it my fears that trigger my fight or flight response and cause me to feel like I have to do a certain action or pattern to stop my thought from coming into reality. Once I see that I'm reacting this way because of a fear, then it helps me to distinguish what's actually real and what my OCD is trying to convince me is real

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