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I’ve definitely had it this bad. It gets better. I remember being younger than you are (I’m 24 now) and as I walked out the door to go to school, I’d look at something, think about touching it, and even after I’ve gotten in the car ran back in and touched it. Had no idea what OCD was then. Took me forever to realize all of this is because we have “sticky minds.” Some things that helped me get out of an OCD loop: cold shower to shock me into paying attention to the cold (or anything that will take your attention away with force), treating the OCD like a bully and telling it to piss off and having an OCD to do the exact opposite of what my OCD says, and thinking of OCD like a tool (a hammer in this case) being used on the wrong thing (like a screw instead of a nail). OCD is not a disability. Don’t think of it that way! I mean this too. I even told my girlfriend recently: it’s actually gotten me pretty far in life. There are so many things that require intense thought patterns and focus and most people just can’t do it like we can. For example, debates: you can think out every one of your opponent’s arguments, what they might say to whatever you might say and come up with counters to all of those too. OCD really is a tool. Sometimes tools are used on the wrong things. I’m not just BSing you, I promise. I wouldn’t want my OCD to go away forever because it helps me think in ways I couldn’t without it. OCD is kinda like an addiction to checking out the next thought. ERP really helps with some of your examples, like the slitting wrist thing, because once you do it without anything bad happening your mind will move onto something else. So grab a piece of paper and mess with it, crumble it up, maybe even touch the edge to your fingers or wrist or something. Proving to your mind that there’s no actual worry will force it to drop the worry, at least temporarily. You’ve got this. Trust me. It gets better. You’re just thinking a lot about having OCD. OCD about having OCD really sucks because it’s hard to see past it, but I recently had that and I’m here now, relaxed as ever. You can do it. OCD won’t kill you. Instead of being afraid of these things, ask for more, bring it on. Do what your OCD is scared of (as far as the actions triggering this, not slitting your wrist).
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Thankyou
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You’ll get better! It might not seem like it, but you can get better
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My ocd started showing up at a young age. I started having to repeat my steps if my thoughts weren’t right simultaneously as that step. At one point I remember having to rewrite my homework multiple times. Eventually, I just forced myself to keep going. Keep writing. Keep walking. Of course it’s way easier said than done. And I’m struggling with it again now as an adult. But this is my first time seeing an actual ocd therapist. I’m hopeful and know that I’ll feel significantly better after the first session. They hear this stuff all day long. No thought or compulsion is going to freak them out. They know exactly how to handle it. Your issue sounds exactly like ocd. I would encourage you to see a therapist on here.
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Thankyou
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I'm 16 and I've had it for a year now. I won't lie and say it'll go away cos there's a chance that it won't. But it will probably get better in the end. If u need anything I can give u my snapchat?
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I would like that and thankyou
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That would be great!
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I haven't been officially diagnosed with OCD but when I learned more about it, I never related to anything more. A little back story: when I was younger, there were a couple of youth suicides in my area and the schools felt the need to have someone come in and talk about suicide. Well the person they had come in did a horrible job teaching it and basically made it seem like the smallest negative emotion or feeling or change in behavior made you suicidal. This ended up scaring me so much that I got horrid anxiety. Fast forward to now, Everytime I feel anxiety and panic, I fear I'm going to kill myself. Everytime I feel down and depressed, I fear I'll end it all. I'm scared to be around anything sharp because the "What if" I hurt myself comes into my mind. There are always intrusive thoughts at almost every point of the day. And it's not only for me. Everytime I hear someone being negative, I fear they will be suicidal. I know in my heart that none of this is true but it's terrifying me that it's stuck around so much that it makes me scared that maybe it is true. I've had a lot of death in my family in the past year and a half and a lot of other family drama that I'd never had before that is now also bringing up existential intrusive thoughts. And I'd never questioned anything about life before but now I get the "why is life like this?" and "does anything we do matter?" and I hate it. I don't want to think like that. I just want to go through life being able to handle things normally again. It terrifies me even right now going "what if you give up?"
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I feel like there’s no way out of this. everyday i’m anxious and depressed from these thoughts. i feel like i have to constantly question if it’s OCD or not. the panic attacks are insane and i freak out. and a compulsion i have is looking eveything up on the internet when im stressing to know that it’s just my OCD and im not in danger. but looking things up add on to my thoughts and i start thinking “what if” actual suidcal people think. do others with this theme whenever they do something like if im taking a picture it’ll be like “yeah you look happy people will wonder what happened when your gone” LIKE i DO NOT want to end my life. or even as simple as cleaning my room, “yup keep it clean so when your family goes through your stuff” then i panic and can’t even do anything. those thoughts distress me so bad. i’ll sit there and think how good my life is or when im having a good day my thoughts will be like “NOPEEE what if your just saying that to convince yourself” it never shuts up and genuinely makes me think i have SI or something. i hope this reaches the right people just to know im not alone. Even when i do get better in the back of my mind it’s always “people who want to are the same a day before too” im genuinely scared and im scared one day im going to just snap and do it because its “too much” do i need to go to a mental hospital! i feel insane.
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Sometimes I think " do I like kids?" "Would i get aroused if I saw content with kids?""What if I'm a pedo and cant accept it?" "What if I'm ok with these thoughts?" "What if I'm not distressed enough " "What if I enjoy these thoughts?" , i avoid kids as much as i can, i cant look at them bc I'm scared I'm gonna have some groin like response. I keep testing if I'd get turned on or if I'd have some groinal response to sexual scenarios with kids. Sometimes I think that if I took my life this would be over and i wouldn't have to think about this and i wish i doubted something else instead of things like this. I had similar situations just with different topics such as if i loved or found sexually appealing a guy while in a relationship and i kept asking myself those questions for months and i avoided going to school for weeks and when I went I'd cry and have anxiety attacks. I had it with past actions i obessed over and felt the need to exploit every detail and be honest because otherwise i was being a fraud. I had it for sexual things that happened when i was a child. Im not diagnosed with ocd but should i tell this to my local counselor? Can someone help? Give me advice or tell me anything?
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