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I’ve definitely had it this bad. It gets better. I remember being younger than you are (I’m 24 now) and as I walked out the door to go to school, I’d look at something, think about touching it, and even after I’ve gotten in the car ran back in and touched it. Had no idea what OCD was then. Took me forever to realize all of this is because we have “sticky minds.” Some things that helped me get out of an OCD loop: cold shower to shock me into paying attention to the cold (or anything that will take your attention away with force), treating the OCD like a bully and telling it to piss off and having an OCD to do the exact opposite of what my OCD says, and thinking of OCD like a tool (a hammer in this case) being used on the wrong thing (like a screw instead of a nail). OCD is not a disability. Don’t think of it that way! I mean this too. I even told my girlfriend recently: it’s actually gotten me pretty far in life. There are so many things that require intense thought patterns and focus and most people just can’t do it like we can. For example, debates: you can think out every one of your opponent’s arguments, what they might say to whatever you might say and come up with counters to all of those too. OCD really is a tool. Sometimes tools are used on the wrong things. I’m not just BSing you, I promise. I wouldn’t want my OCD to go away forever because it helps me think in ways I couldn’t without it. OCD is kinda like an addiction to checking out the next thought. ERP really helps with some of your examples, like the slitting wrist thing, because once you do it without anything bad happening your mind will move onto something else. So grab a piece of paper and mess with it, crumble it up, maybe even touch the edge to your fingers or wrist or something. Proving to your mind that there’s no actual worry will force it to drop the worry, at least temporarily. You’ve got this. Trust me. It gets better. You’re just thinking a lot about having OCD. OCD about having OCD really sucks because it’s hard to see past it, but I recently had that and I’m here now, relaxed as ever. You can do it. OCD won’t kill you. Instead of being afraid of these things, ask for more, bring it on. Do what your OCD is scared of (as far as the actions triggering this, not slitting your wrist).
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Thankyou
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You’ll get better! It might not seem like it, but you can get better
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My ocd started showing up at a young age. I started having to repeat my steps if my thoughts weren’t right simultaneously as that step. At one point I remember having to rewrite my homework multiple times. Eventually, I just forced myself to keep going. Keep writing. Keep walking. Of course it’s way easier said than done. And I’m struggling with it again now as an adult. But this is my first time seeing an actual ocd therapist. I’m hopeful and know that I’ll feel significantly better after the first session. They hear this stuff all day long. No thought or compulsion is going to freak them out. They know exactly how to handle it. Your issue sounds exactly like ocd. I would encourage you to see a therapist on here.
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Thankyou
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I'm 16 and I've had it for a year now. I won't lie and say it'll go away cos there's a chance that it won't. But it will probably get better in the end. If u need anything I can give u my snapchat?
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I would like that and thankyou
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That would be great!
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I haven't been officially diagnosed with OCD but when I learned more about it, I never related to anything more. A little back story: when I was younger, there were a couple of youth suicides in my area and the schools felt the need to have someone come in and talk about suicide. Well the person they had come in did a horrible job teaching it and basically made it seem like the smallest negative emotion or feeling or change in behavior made you suicidal. This ended up scaring me so much that I got horrid anxiety. Fast forward to now, Everytime I feel anxiety and panic, I fear I'm going to kill myself. Everytime I feel down and depressed, I fear I'll end it all. I'm scared to be around anything sharp because the "What if" I hurt myself comes into my mind. There are always intrusive thoughts at almost every point of the day. And it's not only for me. Everytime I hear someone being negative, I fear they will be suicidal. I know in my heart that none of this is true but it's terrifying me that it's stuck around so much that it makes me scared that maybe it is true. I've had a lot of death in my family in the past year and a half and a lot of other family drama that I'd never had before that is now also bringing up existential intrusive thoughts. And I'd never questioned anything about life before but now I get the "why is life like this?" and "does anything we do matter?" and I hate it. I don't want to think like that. I just want to go through life being able to handle things normally again. It terrifies me even right now going "what if you give up?"
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I feel like there’s no way out of this. everyday i’m anxious and depressed from these thoughts. i feel like i have to constantly question if it’s OCD or not. the panic attacks are insane and i freak out. and a compulsion i have is looking eveything up on the internet when im stressing to know that it’s just my OCD and im not in danger. but looking things up add on to my thoughts and i start thinking “what if” actual suidcal people think. do others with this theme whenever they do something like if im taking a picture it’ll be like “yeah you look happy people will wonder what happened when your gone” LIKE i DO NOT want to end my life. or even as simple as cleaning my room, “yup keep it clean so when your family goes through your stuff” then i panic and can’t even do anything. those thoughts distress me so bad. i’ll sit there and think how good my life is or when im having a good day my thoughts will be like “NOPEEE what if your just saying that to convince yourself” it never shuts up and genuinely makes me think i have SI or something. i hope this reaches the right people just to know im not alone. Even when i do get better in the back of my mind it’s always “people who want to are the same a day before too” im genuinely scared and im scared one day im going to just snap and do it because its “too much” do i need to go to a mental hospital! i feel insane.
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Hi, I’m new here!! I’m praying I don’t get judged for this. But, back in late May of 2022 ( literally right before I graduated high school), I added this one random girl from my school on Snapchat. She posted something about a graduation party , so I swiped up on her story basically saying how I can’t believe we’re almost graduated. She replied and we had a really short and simple conversation. The next day ( i believe) , we started talking a lot , and I just so happened to see her at the highschool when we were grabbing our graduation outfits and doing the rehearsal. When I saw her irl, I kinda got turned off ( I heard she was kinda crazy) , and on top of that , she was a little ugly irl. I remember seeing her Snapchat bio , and she was close friends with my female cousin ( a year younger than me) , who I happened to experiment sexually with when I was 10-11 years old. I remember going to work later that day and having sort of a lightbulb flick thought ( it wasn’t a good thought though) , what if my cousin told her about what happened when we were younger? So I started to kind of panic and immediately distanced myself from that girl. I also experimented sexually with one of my female friends when I was 10-11 , and from that day onwards, I’ve been pretty much living in paranoia and a little bit of guilt about someone finding out and my life being ruined . On top of that, It’s gotten worse to now sometimes I wonder if a girl I added off of quick add ( Snapchat) is underage even if they told me they were 18+ or had 18 and above in their bio, and I get so much guilt and anxiety about that. I even had a quick thought last February on what if I did something inappropriate with my younger cousin when I was 15-16 but I just can’t exactly remember when it happened , and it still eats me alive when I think about it, because I don’t know if it happened or not. I’m sorry for the long vent, I just wish I felt normal again. No matter how much I try to do things that old me used to do, life always feels “ off”. I always kept the top part about when I was younger a secret up until early (ish ) 2024, then I vented to one of my best friends and he told me that that’s a normal thing to do at a young age. Since then, I have told multiple friends and they all say they did similar stuff, but my brain just can’t accept that. Please help me, I quite literally overthink everything nowadays. 2021 was the last full year that I felt normal ( coincidentally, the best year of my life so far) . It’s not just about sexual related things either, sometimes I’ll wonder if I messed up something at work or hit a car while driving/hit someone and drove off. I just wanna live my life how I was supposed to live it after highschool ( carefree and happy) before whatever it is ( I think it’s ocd) hit me unexpectedly. Thanks to anyone who read this , I just needed to pour it out regardless of how negative I felt typing this, I hope someone can relate , because I feel so alone in my head at times.
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