I need help PLEASE. please. So my OCD is flaring so bad right now and I feel like stress and pms is causing this. I posted about a guy a week or two before and I told you guys we had no label. That's still true but he has honestly told me the he is still keeping his options open and still talking to other women. Usually that's fine / understandable but I've already gotten attached after three months and thought we were on the same page (wrong of me to assume) I felt so sad upon hearing that and though I understand cause we aren't exclusive I feel as if this cause great stress to me? and anxiety? but I STILL wanna pursue him don't get me wrong. Now, I usually stalk people on social media sometimes for no reason. Maybe I'm just nosey but I've noticed I've stalked him a lot especially this month because ever since the start of December I felt as if he started to show signs he liked me less? even if he has told me he liked me multiple times. Now after he has told me he talked to other women, I get the urge to stalk his profile and i do! I have been for the past three days! and i feel crazy. i feel like a psycho. I checked his recent followers, their accounts, check if he has liked the pictures. I normally don't do that, I used to but I made a rule to stop it and I feel like this new info has triggered and made me give into the urge. Now though, I have deleted instagram because Im aware and I wanna stop this. HOWEVER, I feel so bad. I feel so guilty. I feel like I'm this crazy psycho who isn't his girlfriend yet and is keeping tabs on hum. I don't wanna be this crazy psycho. It's making me get the urge to confess that I've stalked him multiple times on social media and would sometimes check games we play or overthink active status and minutes he's online. I wasn't like this when we started I don't know why I'm acting this crazy and I don't know why I feel the NEED to confess to him I've done all that (I'm fighting the urge to socially stalk him because I don't wanna be THAT type of girl) I feel like I don't deserve to pursue him because I'm crazy and it makes me so sad because I really like him. It breaks my heart I'm the way I am and I feel like he'll never accept me or anyone for that matter. It's too early to confide this with him but i've confided that Imve ocd symptoms before and he seems to be accepting of it but we WERE to date i don't think he'd know its THIS bad sometimes and sometimes HE will be the center of it. I just want the urge to confess to go away because not confessing gives me so much anxiety. Like I wanna get the relief of knowing he still accepts me even with the good the bad and the ugly. but it's too early to tell, i understand. It's only been three months. I feel crazy honestly. Idk if I'm really the crazy psycho girl I look like or if its just OCD making everything worse when things are bad.