I feel like there’s legitimate proof as to why I could be a lesbian? I never thought about any of these things before. Once my friend came over to study at my house after I finally got my own room and I remember having butterflies that she was going to come over ??? I can’t remember if I’ve gotten those before. I don’t really like inviting people over to my house and tbh I’ve never had friends I wanted to invite over but what if that was because I secretly liked her? I remember one of my friends had a dream that I told him I was bisexual (at the time I thought I was, but I’m like 90% sure I’m aro) and that me and that same friend was dating and I remember being really surprised but also kind of intrigued as to what that would look like and then I remembered I would have to kiss her and that made me feel bad and kinda gross. And she’s like my best friend. I’m afraid I’m actually a lesbian, and that I’m going to want to date girls when I move out. All I ever wanted was a quiet and private life!! I wanted to stay single forever and not have to worry!! I don’t even know what I’m looking for but I feel so antsy on the inside, like I’m just waiting for the day it clicks that I’m actually a lesbian. I don’t want to date girls but I feel like I have to!!

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

I’m married to a man and share the same exact feelings: I don’t want to date girls but feel like I have to. And finding evidence is very on brand for ocd. If you suddenly start questioning out of nowhere, I would say that’s pretty much ocd. But reassurance isn’t the best way to handle this. You need to start by tackling the ocd

✨𝒯𝓇𝒾𝓃𝒾𝓉𝓎✨

Date posted: 4y

I feel like it’s normal to be attracted to some girls. I used to feel that way when I was younger even though I consider myself straight. So overall I wouldn’t be too concerned because it’s not an abnormal way to feel like this (at least I don’t think so).

hyperactiveb...

Date posted: 4y

I also remember attractions to girls when I was younger. Mostly they were older girls in school or even adult women that I admired a lot. I wanted to be like them but also be liked by them or become their friend or protegee. I remember being happy if they said that I was like their little sister. I also remember having butterflies sometimes when I was around them but without any physical or sexual desire to be close to them. Also I sometimes fantasized about being the daughter or sister of a female celebrity I admired. I guess I was kinda into them but in a non sexual or non romantic way. Now at 29, after 12 happy years with my lovely boyfriend I repeatedly get triggered by these memories and am scared that they mean that I am a lesbian And have to leave him. I mean even if they were genuine attractions to girls it would simply mean that I am bisexual and I don't get why this scares me so much. But also bisexual doesn't feel right because I don't have any sexual desire for women 🤷‍♀️ but I am in a much better place now, I kinda accepted these past attractions and that there Is no way to know for sure if they were romantic or not. But that doesn't mean I have to blow a life apart that I love and cherish.

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