I’m afraid that I have committed the unforgivable sin. I mocked god. I have been a Christian the majority of my life. I’m really worried that I will go to hell now. What do I do?

The compulsions I usually do to temporarily relieve myself consists of repenting and begging god to forgive me. I was in a really bad mental state earlier which triggered me to ask things like “why does god do this to me” and then I said “you know what, god isn’t even real” and then 10 minutes later I was sitting on the couch begging god to forgive me

@✨𝒯𝓇𝒾𝓃𝒾𝓉𝓎✨ Been there. See if you can last 20 minutes next time. If you aren't ready to avoid a compulsion, delaying it can be a powerful first step.

I said things like “god isn’t real”

@✨𝒯𝓇𝒾𝓃𝒾𝓉𝓎✨ From reading the comments below, it sounds like you might have said/thought that in a moment of frustration about your OCD/anxiety. But, it doesn’t seem like you believe God isn’t real. Is that correct?

@AY-Be Correct. I believe in God.

@✨𝒯𝓇𝒾𝓃𝒾𝓉𝓎✨ Great - so focus on that! Remind yourself of your faith in God. Intrusive thoughts that stem from OCD does not represent who you are as a person. Clearly, this is the case with you. You may say something or think something in moments of anxiety or frustration, but you know you believe in God and you are not mocking Him. Everyone has intrusive thoughts ... it’s all about to which thoughts we give meaning and place undue power. All Christians have doubt from time to time. Even those in the Bible struggled with doubt. We are natural beings created to believe in a supernatural God. He understands and extends constant grace. He sees your desire to love Him and I know that He wishes to see you set free from OCD!

@✨𝒯𝓇𝒾𝓃𝒾𝓉𝓎✨ Also remember that guilt and condemnation are not from the Lord. If you are feeling these things, you know that God hasn’t placed these feelings in you. Nor does it originate from His Spirit. His perfect love casts out fear. Continue to press into His love even on days when it feels impossible. Just sit before Him, even if nothing is said. May you have a deeper revelation of God’s immense love for you.