18+ only. Someone please help! My mind is racing right now. My partner is into true crime but I tend to avoid it bc of its triggering nature. Anyways, today she was watching a video about this guy who did bdsm needling and was also a murderer. (The two aren’t intertwined, ik) I’m not a kinky person bc ocd makes that very difficult for me. I did not know what needling was. She said she has watched needling porn and enjoyed it. I looked it up and am very concerned about the state of our relationship bc I would never engage in that practice.

Serio?

Date posted: 4y

Hey you guys have different preferences about that. That’s all you need to really know.

Carto40

Date posted: 4y

Close your eyes and take some deep breaths. Imagine theres a ball in the center of your chest. As you breath in it expands and as you breath out it contracts. When you breathe out imagine there is a dark mist leaving you. That dark mist is your stress at this current momment. After each breathe notice less and less mist exaling from you intill it has dissapated. Now that your hopefully calmer put in perspective this. Imagine stress and your OCD a river of black water. This river is flowing the vally that your your head. This vally is beutiful, each tree is a good memory, each rock is a nice thought, each animal is something that makes you....you. What does this vally look like too you? Its pretty but this river treatens to flood this vally of mind and uproot your paridise. The more stress you have the stronger the river grows. Now think about this, can anything stop a river from entering the vally? Perhaps with a wall? No...the water would simply build intill it goes around the wall. So intead of trying to stop the river out right combating the river head on, redirect it. Slowly curve the river around the vally. you may not control the river but you do control the earth it flows on, so imagine bending the land. Bend the land and carve a path away from your vally and let the river flow away, into a deep ocean of blue water where the darkness of the river slowly dillutes into the water, never to be seen again. My point in this perspective is you cant fight your stress or thoughts with a wall. Resitaince starts with small changes that mounts over time. You must let these thoughts come and go at there own pace. As the thought roll through you dont ignore it, but dont give it the importance it wants you to give it. Give it a second of thought but dont give it any more inportance in your head then what your gonna have for dinner tonight then let the thought take its due course out of your mind. Youll notice the same thought keeps coming over and over but as long as you dont give it the importance it so demands you give it and let simply wash past you like every other thought youll notice that one day these thoughts come more and more quiet. You are NOT your thoughts, You dont control what toughts enter your head but you do control how long they stick around. Remeber this: Dont stop the river, simpy redirect it. As for your partner you should let her know calmly what it like to like with OCD. Be calm about it and dont exaggerate anything. Be calm about it a simply let her know what it can be like. She doesnt need to understand it complety but she does need to know that sometimes, no matter how illogical it may seem to a normal person certain actions or topics can cause you alot of stress.

Anonymous

Date posted: 23w

PLEASE HELP ME. PLEASE. I'M BEGGING.

Okay so I'm young. A bit young than u might Imagine. Me and my boyfriend where bored and I searched up gay porn js as a joke on google. It was completely blurred. And we where js talking about our truma, and personal stuff while literally just looking at the titles. And I saw a title. A title that has trumstixed me before (I saw the actual video before involving a minor. ) and I clicked on it, still heavily blurred to show my boyfriend the title. And i said baby this really effected me this video. And then I looked below it, same video, blurred. Different title. And I clicked on it to stupidly read the other title. And it FUCKING UNBLURRED. and I SCREAMED saying to my boyfriend if he saw it. And he said no he looked away. And he was so unfazed. And I asked chat gpt about it and it said what I done was NOT okay. Because I looked at child stuff on purpose? My heart has just SANK. self harm urges are back. INTENSE confession compulsions to my mum are back. What do I do. Please someone help.

Idontknow

Date posted: 21w

18+ help me

I was on YouTube looking for saw traps I scenes and I see a saw 5 playlist and I was a bit horny because I was thinking of the guy I’m talking to and it’s like what if the playlist had inappropriate stuff on kids and I got arosal and then I got worried and went to see if there was stuff on kids there The gronial response gets intense I felt arousal because of the idea I might find content of kids there I think I’m a p how is this ocd I get worried when I open playlists or images because I’m going to think there’s inappropriate stuff and I don’t want to accidentally see it and I feel guilty afterwards I feel like I also touched my brother inappropriately I asked if I ever did anything he said no but what if he thinks it’s not wrong or he’s not telling me the truth

Andi 🤓☝️

Date posted: 20w

So distressed plz help :( 18+

*tmi warning* I'm so worried im a P. Ive been crying daily unable to do anything else but ruminate over my real events. When i was 14 (before ocd) i was watching adult content and it was censored. The woman had similar features like hair and skin color as my niece. I remember noticing that and saying "huh i guess I'll imagine that as the adult version of my niece" and I did and after i was finished i moved on and didnt think anything was wrong. I dont know if i ever thought about that again? Its so blurry ocd keeps saying i did it again in a different time but i dont remember its too blurry and its scaring me so badly! I didnt even remember this till like literally last week and i wanted to die! Im 20 for context. When I remembered i immediately broke down in tears. I vaguely rmemeber this other thought i had of her when self pleasuring when I was 16??? I think it was a testing thought out of distress? But im not sure at all! It was extremely vague image and unrealistic i dont think I liked it but maybe i did?! Im so distressed its like i remmeber 2 versions of this particular event which is why I think its ocd false memories from there. Ive been ruminating and spiraling for almost a week. I keep crying i havent ate well at all in days ive been honestly dehydrating myself and i cannot sleep. I feel like a monster. I did the mistake of researching last night and kept comparing myself to the "criteria" of those sickos and like I felt so distressed. I also have been asking ai for hours on end everyday. I feel so distressed im literally crying rn as i write this i cant calm down i feel like this sick individual even tho I dont even like thinking of that at all i dont think I meant ill intent when i was a teen but its killing me inside. I would NEVER harm anyone nor want to or plan to, deep down i know I would never act out in those evil ways but like whats killing me is what if im attracted?! Is this a sign?! Am i one of those people?! Am i attracted to my niece bc of those 2 maybe even 3(??)thoughts years ago?! Did i mean ill intent?! Am I an actual danger?! Am I a monster??? I have so many urges to confess to my mom im so scared what this all means or could mean. I feel so alone and scared. Like legit whenever i get intrusive thoughts about gross stuff i feel disgusted and anxious and push it away. Those thoughts do not bring me pleasure whatsoever but this real event is making me doubt my own identity 😔

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