I am trapped in sin and I dont know if I can win. I saw my mother pass away from covid and I just imagine she in heavens with my God. But for me I dont know. I am like a slave to the sin, dont know if I will ever be sure of my salvation. Life goes fast as a blink of an eye. I dont know how it will end, but I want to be saved. I dont want deceive God or make fun when saying something but keeping doing the same mistakes. Its strange. I want to be a better person. But I dont know how. I feel like I dont have strenght left.

CHRISTIAN PEOPLE/RELIGIOUS AND CONTAMINATION OCD HELP ME!!!!! I think I am losing my mind right now. I was not caring about coronavirus until today, now on Brazil things are gettings crazy as well and I dont know how to cope now. My mother as well started to talk its sign of the end of days and coming of Jesus. Thing is I am obsessing with this, I want to be saved, I want to go to heaven, I believe in Jesus as my own savior, but I am losing my mind. I am also doubting my salvation. Please someone tell me what I need to do to be saved, Ive regreted and repented for my sins, I want to feel happy again. I also super worried about this damm virus and about my family, I really dont know what to do ????

I love the fact God is a loving God. But I also hate the fact that because of that it means that everything I do is my fault, like going to hell. I am going in spirals reading things to see how to believe or how to be saved, called out to Jesus. Scared that I will never produce fruit of the Spirit (Event hoguh Jesus does it in our lives) and that God hasn't written my name in the book of life... I want new desires but I have none, I get very scared of the book of James in the bible or lukewarm in Revelation. Matter of fact I don't even know how to repent, my heart isn't right and I just wish that I had the gifts of the Holy Spirit...

This question is from a religious perspective. I know we have to be good, but we cant be all good, we have to stop sin, but we cant stop sinning fully and we are saved either way, cause its not our actions that sends us to heaven, its God's grace. So anyone who accepted Christ as their saviour its saved, he can still sin, he can still be a bad person, unkind with people, have sex before marriage, do bad things, he is still saved. This makes me angry cause i try everytime to eb a better person and sometimes i just get tired cause i get alot of temptation and i fight to not act on it and be kind person but then i get tired of it cause of many things, and i see people that accept Jesus but they still live an earthly life and enjoy their life better than I do, and they will be in heaven too. Im not saying thes shouldnt, im just talking about whats the point of all of this? If i try to be a better person i get hit by how sinful i am,i feel guilt and i want to avoid being sinful but it doesnt work, and i feel guilt repenting, and there are others who just live their life like others. I have really bad sexual temptations, i dont know if i will be able to not have sex with my girlfriend(when i will have one) im always thinking that i will fight somehow, but there are other christian who doesnt wait till marriage and nothing bad happens, they feel a little bad but they still do it, they are happy, and i will be there struggling to not sin, and maybe it will even do bad for the relationship... What's the point? I struggle with this alot, if im saved why do i have to fight so hard to not sin if im unable to be fully sinful but im still saved? It's like we know its bad to steal food from a store but they would say " you wont get fined or penalty for that but pls dont do it" you will say okay but what happens if youre starving and you dont have money? You dont get any penalty, of course you will steal instead of dying by starvation, and then you live freely... they still welcome you to the store. I know this shows how God really loves us and its beautiful, but then why try to be soo good, why try to be like Jesus if we can never be like that... and as i said many "sins" doesnt seem like its really hurted someone, like i know christian people who had sex before marriage and they still live happily. Or i heard people saying they dont feel bad or guilt having sex with random girls and they are christians... Im struggling with having thoughts that many things i do is a sin and i want to think its okay Jesus saved me, but i feel like a bad person, that i use Jesus pain to just sin...