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Hey, I really relate to where youāre coming from. A couple nights ago I was sure I had to die, that it was the only way to end what was happening or to help people around me? I guess? Not a great situation, but I decided to text a friend. She ended up listening and working through my thoughts with me and helped me calm down A LOT. OCD is an expert at telling us we are undeserving or unwanted but we canāt let it win. No matter what your mind tells you youāve done or will do, you deserve to live. And you are loved. I promise. There is nothing you could do to be undeserving of this. If you need someone to talk to, please donāt hesitate to reach out, I can give you my discord or something! I just want you to know you are wanted. I really relate to your story and Iām so so sorry you are going through this. Sending you love and self compassion. Please be kind to yourself today<3
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I had the same yesterday. I talked to my best friend, who calmed me down as well. Thatās why I recommended that as well.
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I know the pain. Really, if itās so bad, maybe it helps talking to a friend. That helped me a few days ago. I know it sounds stupid, but sometimes reaching out, If everything you learned āfailedā itās good. Maybe share how you feel with someone. Ocd makes you like a child fighting 100 adults at the same time. Iām sure youāre loved. Maybe just reach out to them and tell them how you feel. You can do it. We all can do it.
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Are you seeing a therapist?
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Yes
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Never feels like I can fully put my mind to rest. The problem with OCD for me is once I'm over one worry there's another buried deep into my mind that I'm not fully over. The two events I'm not completely over is when I tried to help a 17 year old with POCD when I was 19 and the topics unfortunately were detailed and even then I explained to them I wasn't comfortable with talking to them. I guess I just had a hard time saying no to someone needing help but it eventually made me so uncomfortable that I stopped talking with them altogether at some point. Then the other thing is being so worried that I committed a crime because my elbow touched someone's behind when I didn't want that to happen at all. I didn't want to listen to my OCD by saying move my arm or something horrible is going to happen so I didn't and then something bad actually did happen. I thought it would just be a light touch while zipping a bag up but then it was worse than I ever wanted it to be and it was so awkward and I hated it. I feel like I just won't be able to get back to the way I was before OCD started all of this. Aside from that I've just had extreme health anxiety but am too afraid to reach out to a PCP even though I need to. Something deep down is telling me I should do this but I'm just so anxious and embarrassed about sharing things to them. I can't even enjoy the things I used to do because this is constantly just messing up my life. I'm hoping I get a start of positivity next time I see my therapist. This just sucks. Feels like others around me are doing so much better than I am and I'm just kind of stuck on these same problems and feeling absolute shame and guilt from the past over and over again. I'm just so sick of dealing with this every single day so I just use escape whenever I can. Even that doesn't really work. I just wish I could go back in time.
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Hi ā¤ļø Iām really struggling right now Iām in my sophomore year of Highschool and Iāve finally started planning or thinking abt my future (for context I was extremely depressed and suicidal from 6-9th grade) After conquering my depression this is a huge leap for me and Iām proud of myself ā¤ļø But thereās something still holding me down :( and Iām not sure what to do anymore that thing is OCD. Since 6th grade I have had strong and invasive intrusive thoughts all the time they scare me so bad and make me feel as though Iām not even real anymore :( Iām sick of taking the time to do ridiculous compulsions to rid or ease these thoughts itās a waste of time and energy and it hurts me so bad I feel like I will never get to just live my life without this :( How can I plan my future when I canāt even find myself in this mess of anxiety š Iām so tired of fighting my mental health itās been years from anxiety attacks to sh to survived suicide attempts (I got help dwā¤ļøāš©¹) and recovery there. Just to be thrown into a storm of awful scary sickening thoughts day and night-when can I just be a normal teenager and possibly a happy adult? How do I conquer this so I can love myself to the fullest and live my life free and happy? :( ā¤ļøā¤ļøā𩹠Iām so scared to talk to my parents about it Iām ashamed of my thoughts and every time I bring it up they just say I shouldnāt be diagnosing myself or itās just ADHD. It really really hurts me they have no idea how awful this feels and it makes me feel so alone sometimes š
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Trigger Warning: Suicide Iām 21(Female) just for reference Anyone else struggling with OCD so much to where you feel so isolated, confused, burnout, suffering & in astonishing emotional pain & agony. I promise yall arenāt alone in the feelings. I promise you there is someone going through similar, obviously our lives arenāt identical, but our struggles can be very similar. Itās even harder dealing with trauma, split parents, abusive parent(s), a sick parent at the same time as all of this. It feels like God or the universe just WANTS you to struggle. Like itās punishment for something you did as a kid or teenager. Iām dealing with all this exactly. Sometimes I just want support. So I hope this message can be support for someone struggling too & hope it helps them be able to breathe a little easier & gives them strength to go on another day. I just would like to mention if you have access to therapy take advantage of it. The therapists are not there to judge you but I promise itās a them issue & youāre not a horrible person. When I used to think of suicide often I started to think less ādoomsdayishā & realized that I wont know how my life will turn out if I just give up. If you give up you wonāt ever know. Whether your situation will improve, & all the fear in your heart just gone. You could miss out on that freedom and happiness youāve been waiting for in this current life we are living. One last thing I want to point out that Iāve thought about is that we donāt know how many more people are out there struggling with this. I think theyāre maybe afraid of judgement. Basically what Iām implying is I feel like there are so many others out there who donāt want to speak up & are struggling with this. Everything on their conscious being afraid to even write it down. I just feel in my heart that there are others who keep these issues to themselves. I think I feel it in my heart because that was me once. Feeling like my story was different, afraid at thought of even telling a stranger(therapist) who could judge me. I did not want to be perceived badly. Iām 21 years old & wish I had the courage to speak up sooner I feel like I couldāve started seeing the light at the end of the tunnel sooner but thatās okay. Speak up for you, you do not have to wake up in fear everyday or contemplate suicide everyday. Even if it feels like youāre your only cheerleader. Sending a virtual hug to all because I know what itās like to just want to be held & told that everything is going to work out. you never know what others are going through, be the person who isnāt afraid to extend your heart to others, try & breathe a little more, take care of yourselves, remember you arenāt alone no matter your situation, stay strong To the suicidal person reading this, youāre resilient & strong. Sending a virtual hugā¤ļø.
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