Has anyone ever gotten the thought “what if I did x and didn’t realize it was wrong”? It started off as “what if I did x and forgot” but it’s kind of shifted into what if I didn’t realize? Anyone else?

I worry everyday that I can't even do my works at school

@kcdvd I've worried all time throughout my semester that I couldn't even work eventually I calmed myself down and got to do them all but I hate that I can't help but feel that I'm not only a bad person that deserves nothing for these mistakes but I'm always aroused by the anxiety and I just want it to fuck off. I would never want to do the same mistake I did last time which is sexting I don't get anything from it and I choose to play it safe whenever I want to be sexual with myself I don't like to involve others because I don't want to hurt them which is why I never want to be in a relationship not that I deserve one to begin with

@BigGip09 ☹️

@BigGip09 Do you have therapist?

@kcdvd No I don't really know how to get one I rely on support coaches

@BigGip09 Hoping for better days and to get rid of our mental health problems ❤️

@kcdvd Yes thank you I hope one day I can just stop worrying about things and be confident in myself thank you for being here

The things I worry about I feel like anyone would think it was bad if I’d really done it

@anaserafina I worry about things like that and things that have already happened by accident or with me not knowing better. With the things that already happened people have kind of looked at it as normal and not harmful but ocd still finds a way I guess

That too. False memories, things that happened in the past and anything sexual

@BigGip09 Ye because I lost my phone and then there's a thought that what if I have nudes or disgusting films there.i don't know what to do anymore

@kcdvd I've sent nudes in the past with other people my age years ago and I was usually flirty with girls and sent and got a lot of feet stuff back then and I was never bothered by it until now I feel like I offended and I'm incorrigible for it I feel like I just can't be forgiven or the same

@BigGip09 Everyone always tells me that it's not that bad but my OCD digs and digs and digs and finds more things of "proof" and I just can't take much more of it

Yeah it's just hard to cope with it all even though a lot of little send nudes but I always fear that someone may have not be of age even though at the times I sent nudes I too was not of age and I also hate that I may have watched something too inappropriate and then I'm held responsible and deserve to be destroyed for the things I did I just hate it but I also hate anything sexual yet can't stop being aroused but maybe that's just anxiety

@BigGip09 Does anyone leak that?

@kcdvd Leak what? Nudes? It happens to people but I don't think it's happen to me. I know others that have had it happen to them but nothing bad really happened to them because eventually people forget about it

You could probably call them out if they do in hopes to take it down but even then people would just forget about it and I don't think much bad would happen unless it were meant to be used against someone.