TW: masturbating, horniness Is it common for people to be turned on by something that would generally give them arousal, but then something else in addition happens within the sexual event, and it makes them even more aroused? Like for example, a woman twerking in a bikini would be pretty arousing, but what if in the midst of that, she just farts or something in the middle of it and keeps going? Normally someone farting is pretty gross to me and it leaves a bad taste in my mouth, but sometimes when I watch sexual videos that turn me on, suddenly something a little more on the taboo side could happen and in the mix of my horny state, I actually find it arousing? Is this normal in the brain when people are horny or am I just someone with a weird taboo thing that I don't know of?

How old are you?

@NOCD Advocate - Cesar O. Hi. I am 19 years old.

@BigGip09 Don’t stop posting when you feel like reaching out, that’s why we are here, no judgements, I do suggest however that while you seek help through NOCD to find a therapist that you hold back on watching pornographic material which seems to only make you more anxious

@NOCD Advocate - Cesar O. I despise most pornographic material but there are urges I feel like I can't control. I don't know how to get a therapist on here and I don't know what to do when I get alone. Feelings take over my self control and my thoughts are the only thing telling me a bunch of things that I should and shouldn't do.

@BigGip09 Intrusive urges are also a part of ocd, go to the sos part of the app and you will find the way to contact them to schedule a phone call which will connect you to a therapist near you. Don’t listen to intrusive thoughts, the more you disregard them the less frequent they will be. You are not your ocd, God loves you right now for who you are and not for who you think you should be

@NOCD Advocate - Cesar O. I try to do neuroplasticity but it's hard, I'm always disgusted and insecure about sexual things because all I can remember are the mistakes I made because I was curious about

@BigGip09 Everything was fine before I ever had sexual curiosities and I would feel better not doing anything sexual because I was happy then everytime sexual topics come up for me I always get scared and uncomfortable and shameful like I have been for the whole day according to the post. I'm gonna try getting a therapist, but I don't know how I'll ever have the money for it

@BigGip09 NOCD is very affordable I wish you the best, please don’t define who you are by your intrusive thoughts nor feelings, you are not the ocd, sexuality shouldn’t have to be a scary thing , but understand that it is your condition that has turned it into something scary and you can recover with therapy and enjoy your sexuality without stress

@NOCD Advocate - Cesar O. I used to enjoy my sexuality and the thoughts I had and the time I had with girls online but now I don't anymore. I hate that I sexted, I hate that I even masturbate, and I hate that I even get turned on because my thoughts just go against me. And I'm always worried I'm gonna end up doing the wrong shit with being horny. So I don't want it anymore. I've wanted to quit this for a long time. Idk how to define myself without the feelings or the thoughts because it's hard

@BigGip09 Please seek therapy it will help you very much like it helped me, God loves you

@NOCD Advocate - Cesar O. I'll try I guess I'll try thank you

@BigGip09 I’ll pray for you to recover, make the effort to seek help