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Yeah that’s super scary. The fact that you know those thoughts are wrong and they disgust you, shows that you’re not a bad person
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With real event, the memories just came up and these memories were years ago that I have forgotten about.
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@AmandaM Yeah I've got these too. I get them basically every single day. The reminders never stop and I always think one day I'm going to jail for the mistakes. I feel like I deserve some kind of punishment for the mistakes, even if at the time I feel like they weren't mistakes.
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Hey you’re ok. Breath. Remember the things you are looking forward to, because you can still have them! Think about how fucking strong you are! You’ve gotten through this, you CAN do this. I know it’s crippling and feels useless and you just don’t want to feel anything anymore. But it will get better. I was in the place this summer where I wanted to hurt myself and end it all too. But I didn’t. And it got better. My head feels better, I’m not constantly sick to the stomach, I can breath, and I have things in life to work towards. You can do this, and you can talk to us, you know we understand and will work through this with you
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It's just extremely hard. Tbh, I don't know if I could make it 😔
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@AmandaM Well I’m heat for you. You have harm ocd and pure ocd, yes? I also have harm ocd. Do you want to talk about it more?
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@Madison Yeah
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@AmandaM Ok well tell me about your harm ocd. What is it specifically?
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@Madison Well I keep on having intrusive thoughts about harming my family. Also dealing with real-event ocd
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@annonymous What’s real event ocd? Sorry I’ve never heard of it, I’d like to learn though!
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Please don't do this, lovely. I've been through so many times where I've felt at such a low ebb with my OCD and every single time, the anxious feelings have passed after a while (even if it's weeks). ERP will help reduce the anxiety if you stick with it. Please keep fighting — there are people out there who care about you, myself included
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I haven't been officially diagnosed with OCD but when I learned more about it, I never related to anything more. A little back story: when I was younger, there were a couple of youth suicides in my area and the schools felt the need to have someone come in and talk about suicide. Well the person they had come in did a horrible job teaching it and basically made it seem like the smallest negative emotion or feeling or change in behavior made you suicidal. This ended up scaring me so much that I got horrid anxiety. Fast forward to now, Everytime I feel anxiety and panic, I fear I'm going to kill myself. Everytime I feel down and depressed, I fear I'll end it all. I'm scared to be around anything sharp because the "What if" I hurt myself comes into my mind. There are always intrusive thoughts at almost every point of the day. And it's not only for me. Everytime I hear someone being negative, I fear they will be suicidal. I know in my heart that none of this is true but it's terrifying me that it's stuck around so much that it makes me scared that maybe it is true. I've had a lot of death in my family in the past year and a half and a lot of other family drama that I'd never had before that is now also bringing up existential intrusive thoughts. And I'd never questioned anything about life before but now I get the "why is life like this?" and "does anything we do matter?" and I hate it. I don't want to think like that. I just want to go through life being able to handle things normally again. It terrifies me even right now going "what if you give up?"
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I can't stop thinking about ending my life. I feel like I'm not even living, I'm just surviving. Everyone is capable of being a person and functioning and I'm just stuck here avoiding everything. My psychiatrist said my ocd is severe and it will all take time and I'll start erp and I'm already on medication but I just feel so depressed and like I won't be able to handle erp and it's already too late for me. I feel inhuman, it's debilitating. My major theme is just fear or contamination, I can't even make myself a meal I can't touch anything in the kitchen. I get stuck in the shower for 2 hours and when I don't shower because I'm depressed I feel like a walking germ. My hands are a mess, my school work is shit, I avoid and avoid and I'm just so tired of "living" like this. My psychiatrist said they don't have any therapists available right now like.... excuse me? What do you mean u don't have any 😭 I honestly don't even know why I'm typing this becuase nothing helps, nothing ever will. I'm so deep into this I can't get out, my room looks like shit, I can't live in this body anymore, I really can't. I let everyone down, I am and will be such a dissapointment. I don't have any dreams or goals or passions I just wasn't made to be here. I don't know how or who to ask for help like there's nothing anyone can do, I'm already on meds. I can't keep being like this, seeing everyone judge me for acting insane.
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I can't live with OCD anymore. It's ruining my life. I feel like I'm being constantly bullied in my own mind all day everyday. I don't know if what I think and feel is ever real or normal or okay, what is me and what is the OCD thoughts. I don't know if any of my experiences are normal. I'm exhausted from picking apart every single conversation I ever have with anyone until I'm strung out by a vague and ambiguous feeling of guilt. I'm tired of feeling like I'm a bad person and feeling scared all the time and not knowing why and having my brain spin me out on an endless spiralling train of thoughts that never goes anywhere and just makes me feel disconnected from everything and everyone around me. I don't know what I feel and if what I feel is normal or if anything I am doing is real and actually me or if I'm 'losing my mind.' I don't even know if this makes any sense. I get into these states of mind where every thought in my head and everything I feel and perceive makes me question my own sanity. I don't know if anyone likes me because I have absolutely no concept of what I am actually like. I feel completely lost and confused CONSTANTLY.
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