Sometimes with this OCD it ends up being too much that I just cry. I try to fend it off for long enough until my body tells me that maybe I should just cry. So I did. After a few minutes of doing so, I feel slightly better. I just want to be happy again, even if I feel like I don't deserve that. I just want to enjoy my life without my thoughts getting the better of me, even if I feel like I don't deserve that either. I just want to be able to let go of my mistakes and try and get as far away from them as possible. I can't tell if I'm overreacting and overthinking my real events (a tiny spectacle says I am but I often can't see that because of OCD) or if I really am the worst person ever. Regardless I just want to be back to my real self. I don't know what to do, guys. I don't know if that cry helped me or added onto my pain

Hey! It's been a while since I've seen you post. You're a good friend of mine too. I didn't know that I changed your ways of thinking and perspective looking so much on this app. I'm glad I have friends on here. I'm glad I'm able to help you and my friends on this app whenever I can. I love to help people. I just want to help myself just as much. I'm trying not to ruminate and I'm doing the best I can with the ERP status I've made. I try my best with being myself, but when I overthink and ruminate on basically everything, it gets hard but I'm trying to work on that. Thank you for just being here in my life while I'm here. You and everyone else here made a difference for me too.

@I don’t know I want to say the same to you, and all of you others! You are of much help for me! You being here makes me happy because I'm more than happy to see you here with me commenting to make me feel better. And I say thank you to that! Seriously.

@Valentino I appreciate you too, man. I've always been more than happy to help you and you've done the same for me. It was always nice to see a reoccurring name under my posts along with the others. Seriously, this makes me really happy. People showing that they do care. I love you guys.