Lately I’ve been having this thought about if I have to experiment with people sexually. I don’t really want to and sex isn’t really my thing anyway, but I keep having this thought “you should experiment with girls” “that’s the only way you’ll know for sure” can I know for sure without experimenting? Can I trust myself? I was trusting myself, but now I don’t. I feel obligated to do this thing that I’m honestly afraid of and don’t want to do.

cnv

Date posted: 4y

Hey You are not alone. I constantly have the feeling that i am repulsed by straight sex

stop.

Date posted: 4y

It’s not necessarily the fear of being repulsed by straight sex. It’s the fear that I’m doing something wrong by not wanting to experiment. I feel that pressure that I have to but I don’t really want to, if that makes sense

nGfloat

Date posted: 4y

Yeah, I get that feeling. It is horrible because you almost want to be crazy in love like you used to be, but it feels like you are forcing it.

aurokoi

Date posted: 4y

@stop. I feel this too. It’s like there’s no way to know unless I do it and try it didjdk

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

I get this too! Sex for me is kind of rough with ocd. So my brain is like oh you know you’d like sex more with women, you would love it, blah blah blah. And I really don’t want to do it but it feels like I need to.

cnv

Date posted: 4y

Literally right now I am having thoughts about naked women and I feel more attracted to them than the naked male body. I mean, not necessarily attracyed to, but turned on by. I guess i’ll just have to accept it

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

@cnv ME TOO

cnv

Date posted: 4y

@wellwellwell I miss my old self. Back when my sexuality was simple and straight forward. Now I feel like there are a lot of details and nuances and I am tired of them

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

@wellwellwell And that makes me think I would have to like sex more with a girl. But I don’t think about sex with women or desire that at all. It just feels like I have to.

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

@wellwellwell Yeah like oh if you’re more turned on by a naked girl sex with one would be way better even though that makes me so so so depressed and I never feel attracted to women I meet. I’m so happy to talk to someone else like this

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

@wellwellwell It just sucks, sex w my husband is super hard for me bc of ocd which makes me think I need to have sex w a woman

nGfloat

Date posted: 4y

@cnv Me too with guys. It sucks so much. I’ll be out in the street and it feels so much like attraction.

nGfloat

Date posted: 4y

@wellwellwell Do you get urges sometimes to try? I have had a couple of random moments where it felt like I needed to out of desperation like that’s what I wanted.

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

@nGfloat Yes but I really do not want to. The urges just make me depressed

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

@Bryan I’m trying not to! I’m trying to stay positive and worry about the present

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

@Bryan You’re going to be okay!

holley

Date posted: 4y

i feel this way too and i have lesbian fantasies sometimes so it really worries me and i think being curious is okay it’s like saying i wonder what that lollipop would taste like (not meant to be sexual) when you’re a kid it doesn’t mean you have to. i feel like i have to. i cried and cried this morning about the thought of one day breaking up with my boyfriend and later on in life experimenting with a girl. i don’t want that but i just don’t want to hurt him i don’t want that to happen. maybe i’m just worried about hurting him. i think we all get curious but doesn’t mean we act on it

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