Does anybody ever take a minute to think to themselves how they were before OCD came into their lives? How you may have thought beforehand, what you did, the hobbies you had, the feelings you got, or even the people you've met and still might be with now? I've been getting that a lot lately. Whenever I'm not dwelling on my past actions when I barely knew better or thinking about how my future may turn out, I eventually think about how I used to be when I didn't know what OCD truly was. What if I had thoughts like these but they were either repressed completely or I just didn't react to them at all? Did I always worry about the future back in high school? Possibly. Was I perfect? Much like the others, absolutely not. Have other people find8 through things that I can relate to or had it worse than I did? From what I can remember, they have. But, they all seem to be fine and we're able to let go of the past. Why can't I?

i also remember music used to be 20 times better, now i cant listen to music without having intrusive thoughts that destroy any vibe i was trying to build.

I'm so sorry. What a shockingly low age to be held against your will thanks to a horrible doubting disorder. I really hope you get all the help you can to beat this. It genuinely shocks and hurts me to see that little kids can go through this just as much as older people could in different forms.

@BigGip09 Oh yes it seems so bad. But I am used to all this terrifying symptoms and to all the symptoms that seem light but in reality the are so annoying. I'm sad that young people as you said cannot be happy in these ages

@Love12 I can relate to that. Used to it on one hand but annoyed and petrified on the other, but at the same time. I don't wish this along with any other mental disorders on anyone. It's just too sad to even think about a kid going through the same things I do on a daily basis. No child in the world deserves that. :(

@BigGip09 No one deserves that no matter age

@Love12 100%. I wish you the best. Thanks for stopping by to reply! :)