aurokoi
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- 4y
lolashewaslolashewas
- Date posted
- 4y
this sort of unlocked a memory of mine. in the handmaids tale, there was a lesbian subplot that I was interested in. WTF?? why was I so interested in it???
UrielUriel
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- 4y
If it’s something you’re having to consciously deliberate, you’re not actually a lesbian. You would just ‘know’ subconsciously. It would be in the same flow as the rest of your life, not something that stands out like this. Anyways, Your compulsion is trying to figure out whether you are a lesbian or not. Stop doing this compulsion, and things will resolve themselves over time, one way or another. But only if you stop doing compulsions regarding this lesbian obsession.
lolashewaslolashewas
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- 4y
what would it feel like to subconsciously “know”? I ask because I’ve had this obsession off and on for nine years and it feels like on the “off” parts I subconsciously “know” that i’m gay but able to brush it off, whereas sometimes i am not and I have panic attacks that lead to months of compulsions.
lolashewaslolashewas
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- 4y
hello?
UrielUriel
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- 4y
Are you saying that during the times when you’re not having any obsessions or compulsions regarding this, and the entire topic is off of your conscious mind for long periods of time, you ‘know’ you’re gay? Regardless, you need to stop trying to figure this out. Stop doing your compulsions which are trying to ‘figure out’ whether you are gay or bot, and the whole situation will somehow become more conciliatory to you. You’re doing too much. It’s a time to remain actionless and let things work themselves out over time. What will the outcome of this be? Only time will tell
aurokoiaurokoi
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- 4y
You’re right I only think about this when my anxiety is really really bad. Thank you for the comments
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