Fightingit
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Fightingit Fightingit
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When you got that thought of your nephew. Did you feel as if you didn’t have any arousal or attraction or desire....but you feel like ocd creates a urge or creates a scenario about HAVING an urge ?
charissepisces2021charissepisc...
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Sounds like intrusive thoughts trust ive had them way worse. When im with my nephew cuddling I get thoughts like "he would make a nice boyfriend" and I get freaked tf out!!! It's crazy lol but our minds just like to trick us and pull us back in bc we subconsciously expose ourselves to the things we fear
Fightingit Fightingit
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I don’t get aroused by the thoughts nor do I feel desire.....but I feel like ocd makes me.....imagine? A desire ? If you get what I mean
Fightingit Fightingit
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It almost feels like you want to do these things...but actually you know you don’t
charissepisces2021charissepisc...
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Yes that is exactly how I feel, like my mind purposefully leads me into an urge and I even get groinal sensations! But they aren't the same as arousal. Lol
Fightingit Fightingit
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YES! exactly. It feels so much like an urge. But it isn’t because if it was you wouldn’t be obsessing over the fact that it feels like an urge
charissepisces2021charissepisc...
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@Ocdfear03 Yeah! If it was real you would know it. Like the groin have so many nerve endings. Your brain could actually make you orgasm if you were dreaming about it bc its like 10x more sensitive when your sleeping its so annoying 😭😭
charissepisces2021charissepisc...
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I think ocd makes you literally try to be a pedo and its horrible even though you know you don't I think pocd is the worst theme personally
Fightingit Fightingit
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Can ocd affect people differently. Like some people say that they have thoughts like “what if I did this to this kid right now”. I don’t get them. I tend to get more images OF a child NOT of doing something to that child. I also get more phrases that what ifs. an example of this would be having words come into my head like “CHILD P***” this can happen at any time for me....these thoughts don’t arouse me tho. Not in the slightest
charissepisces2021charissepisc...
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And yes I think ocd affects everyone differently and that makes it worse bc then our mind goes to well that person does have this but I do so does that make me a pedo?
charissepisces2021charissepisc...
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@charissepisces2021 Dont*
Fightingit Fightingit
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It also feels like sometimes I’m trying to force myself to feel like pedos are bad. Like when I hear something on the news about it. I also feel like I don’t feel as bad or worried or as anxious as I should about it. Almost like my head is saying “it’s no big deal...yeah your not aroused by it but you may still wanna do it”
charissepisces2021charissepisc...
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Omg i have the exact same thing like I dont think pedos are monsters anymore.... it scares me like what if the fact I dont hate them with every fiber of my being what it means... but I think it might just be us becoming numb to it.
charissepisces2021charissepisc...
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@charissepisces2021 Maybe our minds purposefully make it so we arent repulsed anymore just to convince us we are something we arent... idk but I can relate to that 100%
Fightingit Fightingit
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@charissepisces2021 I think it’s because we’ve dealt with it for so long it kinda don’t affect us
charissepisces2021charissepisc...
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@Ocdfear03 It must be. I feel so much guilt but when I let go of the outcome I get better and don't even worry about it and shit is stressful in the world right now...
charissepisces2021charissepisc...
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@charissepisces2021 So I think its best to not take it too seriously if possible
Fightingit Fightingit
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@charissepisces2021 See I don’t feel guilt....and that..scares me
charissepisces2021charissepisc...
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@Ocdfear03 Maybe thats a good thing tho. Like you don't wanna tell yourself you "should " be feeling guilt because then you would get even deeper into it. Like ocd is basically saying "you arent guilty enough for me so that means this" and nothing will ever be good enough
charissepisces2021charissepisc...
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@charissepisces2021 And I think in a way the whole basis of pocd is guilt and shame
avh202021avh202021
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How long have u had this, I’m struggling so bad
Fightingit Fightingit
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Bout a year?
charissepisces2021charissepisc...
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5 months....
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