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Please let a professional know at once ..I don't intend to alarm ANYONE but mental health/ mental illness can contribute to your having these thoughts and both you and your daughter DESERVE to get this help . You might consider letting a very trusted friend or family stay with you or allow your child to take a break at their house while you get help and recoup / recover a bit . This must be heartbreaking and terrifying and that's perfectly " normal " , the reaction is normal . The thought itself and what is causing it really must be first addressed by a Dr ( psychiatrist/ psychologist ) because one MUST rule out a medical cause in your situation . Go to the E.R. with great honesty in your heart if you don't have a psychiatrist. If you have one or a therapist ? CALL NOW . They WANT you to seek help.
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I have been assessed by a mental health assessment team, which included a psychiatric team, i spoke about the contents of my thoughts and they ruled out other mental Health conditions. and your post does cause me alarm as it has made me panic. I have suffered all my life with OCD and terribly for the last 9 years.
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I feel this way too sometimes. I have a different subtype, but I too become numb and disconnected. If I do ____, then I won’t be anxious anymore is a common thought too. It’s a LIE from your brain to give in to whatever compulsion you have. I’m sorry you’re going through this. It’s extremely painful.
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my compulsions are usually checking and internal but I just worry its not OCD as why am I not wanting to kill myself? why am I not carrying out all sorts of compulsions like everyone else does to stop anything from happening? I would give anything to die right now and give my family someone else. I feel tortured every minute of every day.
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@Kimberley* OCD is different for everyone. Your experiences may be very different from others.
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@Kimberley* Mental compulsions like checking are compulsions too.
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@samantha21 thankyou for your response samantha I wish I had never posted this post as I have only caused myself more stress due to people's comments.
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As a nurse and because I am a professional trained when to identify a potential , possible very serious issue like this ...I err on the safe side of the childs safety / welfare . Are you familiar with mandated reporters and how many bad outcomes / tragedies are avoided ? Listening 🎧 is critical ...there's two phases to this 1. Thinking you might harm a vulnerable child - thought 2. Considering the act may relieve ones suffering ( solution ? ) Are you qualified or do you personally know this person well enough to say " Nevermind , this child is fine , it's okay " and write it off as OCD at once ? It may very well be but I am just adding another set of eyes , my own input .
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I certainly feel for you 🤗 Hope you get your panic under control too . Very glad you are trying.
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do you suffer with OCD?
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My post did not " cause you to panic " . ..your problem does . The OCD as you say .
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I'm praying for you Kimberly
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thankyou ❤ how have you been getting on? hope your well xx
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@Kimberley* I've been okay. I finished my group therapy about 2 weeks. I miss it.
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i haven’t been diagnosed with ocd but I have anxiety about harming other people/family members and it’s like urges and im scared I actually want to do it? I don’t think I’ve ever been violent as a kid (im 21 now) and the intrusive thoughts don’t go away so im just stuck all day everyday for the past few weeks just thinking and being scared about it and im having all these weird emotions like being irritated and angry I don’t want to hurt people I don’t think idk why my mind is making me think I do I’ve had intrusive thoughts before that I could brush away sure it took like a day or two but this one is different it doesn’t go away and leaves me with the worst fear imaginable and nothing I look up that should be giving me relief is giving me relief + I feel like im not in control of my body and that im just gonna lose it and act on these thoughts it’s just all on a loop and im not sure how im supposed to live the rest of my life when im in constant fear of my self
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I dont know whats going on. I dont know if its OCD anymore. I know it was in the beginning. Ive been through a lot of trauma and had one little scary thought of killing my sister 4 months ago that has blossomed into this giant idea of me being a serial killer and wanting to hurt everyone (I never had any social issues growing up but I have had some trauma). Recently I’ve been having urges to just give in. And my mental images have been horrible and I can’t stop checking if I like them or not. I think I’ve convinced myself I have. This morning I woke up a shaking mess with an urge to unalive my family and when my mom left for work I was alone with my sister and couldnt stop vomiting uncontrollably. I dont know if i’m upset because I cant hurt anyone and I want to, or if I’m scared and just want my old life back. I was an avid horror and gore lover and now I’m convinced I want to do the things I’ve seen in the movies. Someone please help. I’m ready to check into the psych ward.
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My mind is telling me I'm the only one who is dealing with something like this. Idk why I did my biggest BIGGEST fear. I was put on a new medication when this happened which caused me to spiral, my thoughts to be more often, and have insomnia. I have been diagnosed with POCD as well. I woke up in the middle of the night when my child was laying completely cross my chest. I was breathing and having groinal sensations. My mind told me that I assaulted her by this, and I was going to prison for it. My thoughts started going like this, "you're already bad might as well do something else", "no sense in stopping now" "you can finally do what you've always wanted", "what would you do if you could do anything to cause harm" So I had to think of what to do in the moment. The only thing I could think to do was move my elbow towards my child's groin. In the moment it felt like I really wanted to do this. I proceeded to do so, and my elbow touched her groin. I immediately told my child to move off me. I then went back to sleep. When I woke up, I began panicking, confessing to a family member what happened, and crying immensely. I feel like I failed as a mother. I'm in such distress since I started sleeping on the floor to avoid it from happening again, and I got off the medication. I'm so much better OCD wise since I got off the meds. I was the BEST mom months ago before this happened. The thoughts have always bothered me, and I was always scared I would give in and act on them. I'm living my worst nightmare. I feel alone. Felt so so wanted in the moment and SO real. Which I don't understand. Ugh. Could someone just give me some support?
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