why does cheating ocd make me feel like such a liar. i told my boyfriend that i had asked a guy to hangout once when we first began dating and i asked the guy to come hangout as a friend but my rocd is saying i lying to my bf and i wanted to hangout with that guy as more than friends 😞. even though i really didn’t. i hate this so much, this is so hard. someone tell me i’m not alone.

thank you for responding and giving such kind and hopeful words. i know these are all lies yet they feel so so real. it’s tormenting really.

ME TOO! ugh now it’s telling me i had feelings for this guy and that’s why i wanted to hangout with him😐😐😐. i just wanted to make new friends and get to know him but okay ocd 😳

@bambam| At the beginning of my boyfriend and I’d relationship, we were exclusive but not boyfriend girlfriend (I know, confusing) and I flirted and let guys be touchy with me. I confessed this but I keep thinking of more moments where what if I did something I didn’t tell him?

@princessem I feel like if there’s things I didn’t tell him that I’m forgetting, then I’m a disloyal girlfriend and he deserves better and I’m living a lie :(

@princessem omg i’m so sorry! mine is kinda confusing, i let this guy flirt with me and i did ask him a few times to hangout (as friends) and he always said he was busy (pretty sure the universe doing me justice cause he was an awful person) and i never asked him to hangout as just him and i but with groups of people yk? and he knew i had a bf, i always made it clear and he would always flirt with me and call me hot or sexy and i would allow it to happen because i wanted to be friends. but i don’t speak to him anymore cause he’s racist 😐. but yeah that’s my story basically. and i did flirt with him once like right before me and my boyfriend started dating.

@bambam| and my ocd is using me asking him to hangout as reasons of me liking him when i never remember having feelings for him. and it feels like i’m lying just writing that whole sentence...🙄🙄🙄

@bambam| Oh my gosh I hate the technicality of trying to figure out these situations. I wish I could forget the whole situation altogether and not care about the details anymore, but then I would be letting go of something that I did wrong and hiding it if I don’t tell him, you know?

@bambam| I feel this!!

@princessem yes ugh!! it’s so annoying isn’t it? and we didn’t even do anything wrong. i know i did nothing wrong. it’s the fact that the ocd is confusing me finding the guy attractive with me having feelings for him. like WHAT?

@bambam| Try your best to hold on to that thought that you know you didn’t do anything wrong! It’s important to try to center yourself on that so you can give less credit to the annoying thoughts trying to convince you that you messed up!

@princessem thank you i’ll do that! you’ve been a big help and have been making me feel a lot better.

@bambam| I’m so glad! I love that we can all be here for each other! :)