ok so i’m going to therapy soon and i’m scared the therapist will tell me i don’t have OCD/HOCD and that i’m young and i need to do some soul searching or that i just need to learn to accept myself as bi and to know that it’s ok to be that way. i really hope i have OCD?

Before i was officially diagnosed with OCD, I was in the worst mental agony of my life, went to see a therapist and expressed my Homosexual thoughts, I was shaking and he said to me... "The reason why you are feeling like this is because you're repressing your true identity" Also said... "Until to decide to come out and give the Gay lifestyle, you will always be miserable" That was an absolutely horrid day, i actually believed him, it felt like torture. And then months later, went to a therapist that knew about OCD and immediately she knew I had most of the symptoms of OCD, what a relief.

I still doubt this myself nicolep123, it's scares the heck out of me. "maybe I'm in denial" "maybe OCD is just a cover up" Never ends.....

Oh my god I’m so glad @nicolep123 and @AhmedH feel the same was as me, I’m petrified of therapy because the last time I went the therapist told me exactly the same that I am repressing my homosexuality and have been all my life. You don’t understand the pain and anxiety this causes a person. Many a time I feel so down and believe that he’s right and I should just let the ocd consume me but that’s not right either. I’m hoping my next therapist (I’m going next week) will help me deal with OCD rather than call me gay.

If it gets really really bad and you feel like it’s overwhelming you should see a psychologist or therapist because although talking about it helps it won’t get rid of the problem entirely.

This is typical of Hocd

This is exactly how someone with HOCD would feel. So it makes total sense! Ive had many many confused therapists about ocd. So Just try and remember as much as you can that YOU know you have hocd and ocd no matter what the therapist says. But I hope it goes well ! you’re awesome for going to therapy and very brave. I’m excited for you. Therapy has helped me so much!

I’m a bit scared of starting therapy too (with this fear of not being diagnosed). I think it’s pretty common!

Yes it's normal to be scared of that if you have OCD. I would note that someone who specializes in OCD treatment will likely not offer you reassurance that you're not bi as it makes it worse over time because our minds can't handle uncertainty and it becomes a compulsion to seek reassurance. But if you do have OCD they will help you learn to handle it and shouldn't be just jumping to the conclusion you're bi and just need to soul search either

omg my heart skipped a beat reading that. i really hope that not the truth for me

do you guys feels the same way? I can even saw same sex people, and the triggers stsrts, no matters who is it

i’m scared i don’t have HOCD. what if i’m just scared what people will think of me if i came out as bi. thinking that gives me so much anxiety. ughhhhh this feels so real.

I know exactly how you feel, you are not alone ??

I have exactly the same thoughts.

it’s really scaring me. it feels SOOOO real. but when i realized it’s just my OCD playing tricks on me, i feel 100 times better and confident that i am straight. i really hope this is OCD

Me too, as someone said to me... if you were Gay you wouldn’t be obsessing and deliberating constantly and you would be excited to explore you’re sexuality

ok than thank god because i am NOT excited to explore my sexuality lol. i just want to be straight and stop obsessing over things that have nothing to do with me?

thank you!!!!

ok i just hope this is all OCD

what if that happens to me ?

same here. every freaking day

It kills... I just kill everyone who came in between me n my partner... Whether it's ocd.... I will die single but never date a girl... Never... It has taken my all personality

Any tips? I cant ever talk to same sex people without questioning my self all the time... like: “are you enjoying it? Then you might be gay” “ if you are talking to her, then yes you gay”