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Before i was officially diagnosed with OCD, I was in the worst mental agony of my life, went to see a therapist and expressed my Homosexual thoughts, I was shaking and he said to me... "The reason why you are feeling like this is because you're repressing your true identity" Also said... "Until to decide to come out and give the Gay lifestyle, you will always be miserable" That was an absolutely horrid day, i actually believed him, it felt like torture. And then months later, went to a therapist that knew about OCD and immediately she knew I had most of the symptoms of OCD, what a relief.
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I still doubt this myself nicolep123, it's scares the heck out of me. "maybe I'm in denial" "maybe OCD is just a cover up" Never ends.....
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Oh my god I’m so glad @nicolep123 and @AhmedH feel the same was as me, I’m petrified of therapy because the last time I went the therapist told me exactly the same that I am repressing my homosexuality and have been all my life. You don’t understand the pain and anxiety this causes a person. Many a time I feel so down and believe that he’s right and I should just let the ocd consume me but that’s not right either. I’m hoping my next therapist (I’m going next week) will help me deal with OCD rather than call me gay.
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If it gets really really bad and you feel like it’s overwhelming you should see a psychologist or therapist because although talking about it helps it won’t get rid of the problem entirely.
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This is typical of Hocd
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This is exactly how someone with HOCD would feel. So it makes total sense! Ive had many many confused therapists about ocd. So Just try and remember as much as you can that YOU know you have hocd and ocd no matter what the therapist says. But I hope it goes well ! you’re awesome for going to therapy and very brave. I’m excited for you. Therapy has helped me so much!
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I’m a bit scared of starting therapy too (with this fear of not being diagnosed). I think it’s pretty common!
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Yes it's normal to be scared of that if you have OCD. I would note that someone who specializes in OCD treatment will likely not offer you reassurance that you're not bi as it makes it worse over time because our minds can't handle uncertainty and it becomes a compulsion to seek reassurance. But if you do have OCD they will help you learn to handle it and shouldn't be just jumping to the conclusion you're bi and just need to soul search either
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omg my heart skipped a beat reading that. i really hope that not the truth for me
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do you guys feels the same way? I can even saw same sex people, and the triggers stsrts, no matters who is it
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i’m scared i don’t have HOCD. what if i’m just scared what people will think of me if i came out as bi. thinking that gives me so much anxiety. ughhhhh this feels so real.
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I know exactly how you feel, you are not alone ??
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I have exactly the same thoughts.
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it’s really scaring me. it feels SOOOO real. but when i realized it’s just my OCD playing tricks on me, i feel 100 times better and confident that i am straight. i really hope this is OCD
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Me too, as someone said to me... if you were Gay you wouldn’t be obsessing and deliberating constantly and you would be excited to explore you’re sexuality
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ok than thank god because i am NOT excited to explore my sexuality lol. i just want to be straight and stop obsessing over things that have nothing to do with me?
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thank you!!!!
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ok i just hope this is all OCD
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what if that happens to me ?
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same here. every freaking day
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It kills... I just kill everyone who came in between me n my partner... Whether it's ocd.... I will die single but never date a girl... Never... It has taken my all personality
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Any tips? I cant ever talk to same sex people without questioning my self all the time... like: “are you enjoying it? Then you might be gay” “ if you are talking to her, then yes you gay”
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can someone with this theme help me i’m so scared and i can’t stop having panic attacks is this OCD??? So i always have struggled most with sucicidal ocd and harm ocd. i never really had any other themes. but recently ive struggled with SOOCD. My whole life i have never EVER been into girls ever and i could never even think of ever being with a girl in my entire life. i’m having extreme amounts of anxiety and i have compulsions to make sure i look at a girl and don’t feel anything towards them or anything. My mind is literally going “what if your just in denial” or “what if you’ve just been hiding it all these years” When i know i haven’t. i have all of the symptoms of SOOCD and i still know that im not gay,but these thoughts are extremely distressing and have been the worse to deal with. I’m constantly panicking and doing compulsions to get these thoughts to leave and they won’t. i’m scared and these thoughts are making my mind scared. What if i’m going against my morals and i’m lying to myself like and i just went through a tough breakup too so that is shooting these thoughts and anxiety. Please help omg!!!
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I feel awful that I keep coming on here whenever I’m down bad but oh my gosh OCD is the most painful shit that I have EVER experienced in my life and I have a physical chronic illness…. I hate to say it but I hate living right now it’s too painful… im crying as I type to the point where my stomach is hurting, I have pretty severe ocd I do have generalized anxiety and idk if that is connected with ocd but because of that I have most of the subtypes REAL EVENT OCD,POCD,ZOCD,ROCD,SOCD HARM OCD, you name it and I got it!!! a lot of also why I have have those theme is trauma growing up and involving those things^ as of right now i’m 25 and a women with the most loving boyfriend in the entire world before my ocd hit me I NEVER questioned my love and care and attraction with the love of my life I always knew I was going to marry and be with this person the rest of my life! Now with ocd it confuses me soooo much and now I think I’m gay and didn’t realize or indenial and listen I get it “don’t look for reassurance!” “It’s not the thing ocd is attacking that is the problem ocd is the actual problem!” Here’s the thing with that if I’m in a relationship and I’m gay that would mean I would have to leave that said relationship and to say that “oh yeah that stuff happens and you’ll move on” is absolutely devastating to me this is THE LOVE OF MY LIFE and your telling me that iv been lying to myself this whole time or that I didn’t realize?!?!? And that sexuality can change (even though some say it can’t google says otherwise and some people have said it can’t idek anymore) and all this other BULLSHIT I can’t take it WHY?!?! why does this have to happen why can’t I just be with my love the rest of my life?!? and yes before anyone says anything I have been attracted to girls more so when I was younger watching lesbian porn liking the body’s and fantazing them sexually it stopped when I got older but I still don’t get disgusted with women who are pretty it just makes me uncomfortable because I’m with the love of my life and before I remember talking to my partner and discussing certain childhood things I experienced and we discussed that we both could be a little bi and for certain I’m (demi sexual so I don’t even really care about looks) and I truly didn’t care!! NOW I do care even with being bi because again I don’t like thinking about anyone else but my partner but I do also know my parents are homophobic and I do think about if I am gay they wouldn’t be okay with that and I also dont want to deal with that so now I sound like in indenial right?!???? I didn’t even care about labels before my ocd it just didn’t matter but now it’s effected my sex life and it’s hard for me to enjoy sex with being so confused I’m so confused I googled everything can you still have sexual fantasies with same gender but still be straight? Can you fantasize about same gender or imagine marrying them all of it !!! And non of that disgusts me it just makes me uncomfortable AGIAN only bc I just love the partner I’m with right now!!! I’m so fucking confused do I have to leave my partner and accept that I’m gay is that going to happen in the future if I get better with ocd and find out it’s been true all along?!???
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I cant afford therapy which is why i’m not diagnosed with ocd. The first time i had heard what ocd was truly abt was 6 years ago when i overthinking my sexual identity and it fit. Additionally, i struggle with debilitating health anxiety and when i was in a rlt i was extremely anxious that i might not love my partner. This is the third year i experience distress around my sexuality but this year it feels real. And it could also explain my rlt anxiety. Comphet is a concept that really scares me. I dont want to be with a girl. I would rather die than discover i was lesbian. I cant accept uncertainty cz i dont want to be homosexual. Chat GPT told me it wasnt ocd + the thoughts dont distress me anymore. I experience 3 intense weeks of anxiety prior to now. Maybe its internalized homophobia. Maybe its comphet. I do find women to be attractive but i dont wanna be with them. Maybe i’m in denial. Idk anything anymore. I’m remembering times where i would find an actress attractive and try to shift my focus towards the man cz it would make me anxious. I’m not well at all.
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