Ok...i know I post a lot. But I could really do with someone to talk to. I’m having an OCD (if it is ocd) attack

ahh yeah the arousal checks shit :/ well maybe try distract yourself. watch funny youtube videos, chat with friends. just because your body is reacting, it doesn’t mean you like it

@e It’s not even arousal checking.....ok so intrusive thought comes in with no anxiety most of the time.....I clear it from my head....then groinal response (if any at all).....then my head throws another at me to get me to like it???.......nah I don’t like it....wait...do I like it.....nahhh....yeah...no I don’t....yes ....no

@Ocdfear03 ohhhhh! i guess the only way to stop it is to distract yourself. that’s what i do whenever my brain tells me i’m a p

@e But do you get that too ?

@Ocdfear03 occasionally, mine are typically ‘you shouldnt be happy you’re a horrible person’

@e Am I right in thinking that if I check to see if I’m attracted or not then that means I’m not ?

@Ocdfear03 i think you’re asking for reassurance :(

Yep. It doesn’t even feel like ocd anymore. It feels all too real

@Ocdfear03 i understand. you need to train yourself to sit with the discomfort and ignore it. can i ask what the theme is ?

@e Pocd

@e Real event. Over some mistakes I made when I was younger

@Ocdfear03 ah yeah, i have that same theme and same cause. is it the thought of you being arrested ?

yes those are all compulsions. the obsessing over thoughts is rumination. it’s very difficult to stop mental compulsions but you’ve got to try your best. the thoughts will go away if you do not do your compulsions.

i understand, i checked last night and now i’m back on day 1 :(

me too. i hate living in fear that i’ll hurt a child. i used to want to be a pedatrician :/

@e It doesn’t even feel like ocd...

@Ocdfear03 the thoughts are rlly shitty ik but you don’t like the thoughts, yeah?

yup :( thats ocd being a big bitch. i’d do anything to be neurotypical tbh

@e I used to KNOW I don’t like the thoughts. But since my anxiety has kinda dipped it’s seemed so real

@Ocdfear03 im so sorry abt this :( the thoughts will stop some day. did you see my post about winter earlier ?

in winter, it’s cold and dark most of the time which is like episodes of mental health. the spring is bright, full of blossoming and a new beginning. it’s to show that the winter (depression) will end, and eventually spring (happiness) will come

it’s just symbolism!! noone really likes the cold, which is to represent how noone likes struggling with mental health

@e True. Just a question I have....if I’ve lived with ocd for long enough. Can it become real ?

@Ocdfear03 you’re neurodivergent. your brain is wired completely different to someone who is neurotypical or neuroatypical. if you give in to intrusive thoughts that’s when it becomes a serious issue

@Ocdfear03 if you do nothing, the thoughts will stay thoughts

@e That’s one thing I’ve promised myself I will never do

@Ocdfear03 me too. you can do this! i was told ocd is a marathon, not a sprint

@e So I think I’ve realised WHY I’m feeling like this. I’ve had this worry ever since the anxiety toward my thoughts reduced along with the distress. So that’s explain why I’m feeling like I am because I’m not experiencing the same anxiety toward the thoughts