This erp doesn’t help me at all smfh. I wish it did but it doesn’t. I’m still stuck in my head. I still see weird thoughts when I see girls show up on the tv smh. This whole erp my previous ocd therapist has orchestrated behind my back still doesn’t relieve anything. It just hasn’t. I still don’t feel right.

No. I’ve asked if she could join my therapy session again with this regular therapist to help me out but who knows🤷🏻‍♂️. I just want my life back.

@Issac Simental I would recommend seeing an OCD specialist. If you haven’t liked her get a different one but don’t stay stuck. People with OCD get help all the time because there is help and there is hope. ERP works — you just need guidance on how to do it right. Get an OCD specialist who is specialized in ERP. You got this 😊

@Madison She is though. No one from NOCD would say otherwise. They all will have her back as opposed to mine but I’m like how is anyone going to tell me that these thoughts that repeat in my head isn’t hocd or ocd??? I don’t feel like I’m actually being heard. I would love to see 5 more therapist’s to prove a point who aren’t ocd specialist or are to prove I’m not lying. Like I can easily show my symptoms I can easily tell them what thoughts keep popping up. Like I’m not stupid I know what repeats in my head but no one believes me or they believe something else other than what I’m seeing in my head. But I need money to prove it.

@Issac Simental So they *don’t* believe you have OCD? Or what are they doing? Sorry I don’t understand.

@Madison They believe I have ocd but they don’t believe the physical symptoms I’m feeling is from ocd. I know I have hocd. If I can tell a straight up gay psychiatrist that I’m not gay with no anxiety or no remorse from saying it and that I have no intentions at all to be with a gay guy or anything affiliated with being gay I’m pretty much not fucking gay. I’ve been around gay people and I don’t feel like I am anything like them. As soon as I see the way that they are and how they talk or that they actually do want to have sex with another gay person I’m just like yeah there’s no way. But when I’m around a chick now I get stupid thoughts pop up that isn’t even related to women. Even seeing your avatar I can see what stupid thoughts pop up when I see a girl and it’s so fucking irritating. Like how are you going to tell me I’m not seeing this or that because I’m seeing this is why I’m still stuck in my head? I’m just flabbergasted by the amount of disrespect I receive when I can literally see the stupid thoughts popping up every single fucking time. I’m just fucking pissed over this whole battle of needing to prove what I’m obsessing about and why I’m not out of my head yet smh.

@Issac Simental So they don’t believe your physical symptoms are OCD? That’s odd as OCD can absolutely give you all kinds of false feelings!! Have you tried a NOCD therapist? They’re pretty much the experts on this

@Madison My previous therapist is as good as any other NOCD therapist. Coming up with a plan for me is just hard. It’s ocd but coming up with a plan that doesn’t interfere with each obsession is hard to deal with. The physical symptoms is the worst for me. If the thoughts didn’t cause any physical symptoms then I would be fine but since it does it really sucks.

@Issac Simental are the physical symptoms you’re talking about groinal responses? are you saying your NOCD therapists are saying that your groinal responses are not symptoms of OCD and rather real arousal?

@doloresguppies Not sure really. I get anxiety like my chest tightens up and my body along with groinal responses. My arousals for dudes is fake af. I’ve only had those arousals for the last 4 years but I’ve had hocd for almost 7 years. My arousals for women is weird but I can’t just think about sex with a women naturally anymore without something else popping up. Like I just tried to but a dog popped up smh but I know it’s just ocd. I don’t keep going cuz it’s stupid and it’s just thoughts but it’s a lot though 🤦🏻‍♂️😔

@Issac Simental but I’m confused, your therapists do or don’t think you have OCD?

@doloresguppies Like trust me if an image of a women popped up and I started to sexually think of her then yeah I’ll get hard but can’t cuz of the stupid shit that pops up.

@doloresguppies They do but idk. I just have too many fucking thoughts in my head for them to even decipher 🤦🏻‍♂️

@Issac Simental If the therapist isn’t specialized in OCD, then they simply can’t help you. But there are other reasons why you might or might not feel/not feel something. But that’s up to an OCD specialist to figure out with you.