Kimberley*
- Date posted
- 4y
Michael456Michael456
- Date posted
- 4y
The intrusive thought is not you that's how ocd workes it's makes you doubt who you are in the end you are not that
Kimberley*Kimberley*
- Date posted
- 4y
I think I've left my OCD ubtreated for too long, I've tried to cope with it and now I'm so confused, I feel no emotion to anything, just completely numb, and this only feeds my fear that I'm a bad person and that i want it. I just feel I've no way out as if my OCD has gone that far nothing will ever fix it. thankyou for your reply â€
sfgal88sfgal88
- Date posted
- 4y
Iâve been in this spot often, cursing the day that one horrible thought crept in and latched on. We all feel what youâre feeling. Youâre not alone.
Kimberley*Kimberley*
- Date posted
- 4y
†its hard, I know people are suffering just like me and I wish noone had to suffer because this is no life. I'm just so worried its not OCD and that I'm either a psychopath or already mad.
sfgal88sfgal88
- Date posted
- 4y
@Kimberley* Iâve told people that I wish OCD was more like cancer, because cancer doesnât try to convince you itâs not cancer. That âwhat if itâs notâ thought cycles through my mind too, and you have to hold onto the fact that your brain is hurt. This disorder is categorically determined to sow doubt, even about its own existence. It sounds like the hardest thing in the world, but you have to leave it alone. It really is the only way to be ok, even thought itâs not ok now =)
Kimberley*Kimberley*
- Date posted
- 4y
@sfgal88 I have often thought this too, a physical illness you can get absolute certainty that you have whatever it is you have like a broken bone etc. to have an illness of the mind is truly devastating I just don't know how to cope with it anymore. its like nothing brings me relief even things that used to. even though I know all the facts about ocd it still doesn't bring me any comfort so I have no idea what it going to help and if it is OCD at all. I have a track record of OCD and anxiety and even that doesn't turn on a light switch in my head. and then this is what leads me to think there's something more serious like schizophrenia or something đ„ I just can't deal with it. I really appreciate you taking the time to chat â€
sfgal88sfgal88
- Date posted
- 4y
Your desperation for certainty, and the devastation caused by useless grasping for it, is the core of OCD suffering. Iâm so very sorry for how youâre feeling today. Believe me when I say that we all really do understand this. Youâre not crazy, your brain is broken. It doesnât feel like you can deal with it, but I promise you can. Try today to be ok with things not being ok. Tell yourself, âNope, Iâm not doing this right nowâ and go take a nap or watch a movie that is soothing.
Kimberley*Kimberley*
- Date posted
- 4y
Thankypu for your words of encouragement I really appreciate it when I find someone on here who takes the time to try and support me. I will keep trying and come tomorrow I will try what you said with putting my focus into something else ( even though as I'm saying this my mind is saying I don't want to do that) constantly battling. thankyou â€
Anja82Anja82
- Date posted
- 4y
@Kimberley* I'm sending you a lot of love, I'm going through hell myself and don't know how to endure it anymore
Kimberley*Kimberley*
- Date posted
- 4y
@Anja82 thankyou for your support †how have you been doing? its awful it literally takes over every aspect of your life.
Anja82Anja82
- Date posted
- 4y
@Kimberley* Thank you. Yes! It really takes over every aspect of your life. I'm kind of in survival mode every day. I can say I've never felt this bad in my whole life as I do now
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- 23w
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- Date posted
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- Date posted
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