I swear I’m a shoot myself if another therapist doesn’t think I’m not seeing the words “dude, dick, I am gay” coming out every time I see a girl. Or that when I try to think about a girl and think about having sex with them something else comes up. Like I just tried to and the words “gay ass shit” popped up. Like I really hope they truly understand me cuz if not yeah I’m done. Shooting myself will be the best thing if therapy can’t help me I’m just saying.

Nah bro. I’m like basic af. I’m not some sociali media look at what I’m doing person. The only time I socialize is to get something I want if I’m being honest with myself.

@Issac11 I understand but DONT kill yourself theres no point running from the problem we need to face the obstacle then we can go back to our normal selves we suffer from a mental illness and we can’t let it win and therapy won’t just suddenly cure your ocd it’s gonna take a while and you’re gonna feel a massive relief and improvement and there’s also different ocd treatments probably coming in the future there’s lots of hope for all of us so don’t give up keep fighting even if it’s hard

@Mrspeedy I ain’t gonna be fighting shit. Like why live life feeling like shit? It’s not like I haven’t tried. I have. I had therapist already tell me they couldn’t help me and think I need a higher level of care but that shit ain’t a fuckin guarantee so why not kill myself? Like no one can convince me that not killing myself if a therapist can’t help me is a bad choice. No therapist previous or now can give me a convincing argument to keep living like what are they going to tell me exactly? They can’t tell me nothing they have no clue about what will make me want to keep living so why bother? Like I’ll try with a different therapist but I ain’t going to get my hopes up. Like I’ll do all the positive shit they want me to do. I’ll do the erp they want me to do. But in the end if I’m still struggling then yeah I don’t want to stick around for shit.

@Issac11 Those therapists are bad they don’t understand nothing you need a qualified ocd specialist

@Issac11 You 100% have ocd you have all symptoms I can tell

I’ve met with 2 of them on that list and they couldn’t help me. They said I needed a higher level of care. I’m not expecting much. I just don’t know what long ERP’s to do about my ocd so that I can get on with my life.

And honestly 2 of them on that list before I even attempted to do therapy on my own were two fuckin busy to help me out which made me get fucked up in the 1st place so thanks for showing me the this website to see the therapist that I sent emails to and said they were too busy to help me and let me get like this.

@Anonymous Have you tried NOCD?