I'm worrying that my ocd hasn't been as severe recently. The anxiety and thoughts have decreased and I'm not obsessing as much. I think this is because of medication and learning tactics to fight ocd effectively. But as I said I'm worrying that my ocd isn't as severe and I fear I don't have ocd at all despite diagnosis. Anybody else experience this?

That’s not a bad thing- that’s awesome!! You don’t want to be suffering, you want to be getting better and if the medication is helping you, that is amazing!! I can say that I definitely experience this. I got diagnosed literally a couple of weeks ago with ocd, but I’ve been experiencing the symptoms for a few years. I constantly obsess over it, thinking that I’m somehow faking having ocd and that I don’t really have it, but I know I do because otherwise, I wouldn’t have gotten a diagnosis. To be honest, ocd doesn’t have a cure, it’s just using different tools whether it be therapy and medication, to help you learn to cope with the disorder. I totally understand your worry, but remember that you want to get better- you’re raising your anxiety by obsessing over the fact that your ocd isn’t as severe and that you don’t have it at all. Use the tactics that you’ve learned to help calm you down and remember that it’s not a bad thing to have your symptoms go down, because having them sucks. Hope this helps!

It is your medication helping you.

Ooh this is very interesting. Sarah touched on this in her comment, and she's right- you don't want to be suffering. It's my personal theory that OCD is directly related to low self esteem. We doubt the past, doubt our future successes, etc. and that scares us because we must face our underlying fear of inadequacy. (OCD is also very much linked to trauma.) You may be feeling insecure lately and so your OCD is latching onto something you typically leant on when you were feeling symptoms, i.e. "it's just my OCD and has no effect on me as a person." You might just not be used to not suffering, so your OCD is panicking trying to find a reason to make you upset.

Hopefully that makes sense 😂