I just realized something...for people with SOOCD...love shouldn’t make you feel anxious. It shouldn’t make you feel disgusted. Love is natural, love is beautiful. Love is who you feel comfortable around...also here’s a test. Who would you rather wake up next to in the morning? Man or woman? I sure as hell want to wake up with a beautiful woman. I was at a real low point today...intrusive thoughts all over the place, ruminating, checking, rapid heart beat...maybe I should just lay off the caffeine. But God know I want to be with a wife. A WIFE. I want beautiful sons and daughters. And I promise as God as my witness I will protect them from the evils of porn. Porn damn near ruined my life. This is my pledge to keep fighting this no matter how terrible it gets. Side note: NO FAP 11 days and counting. I love you all, this condition is a mother f*cker. It feels like my brain is melting half the time. Trust your instincts, don’t let doubt ruin your life. Believe in yourself, I love you all. Stay strong 💪🏼

Jovan Zecevic

Date posted: 4y

Porn didn't do that to you man. But what can porn make? You lose sexual desire and motivation for a real girlfriend because you know that you dont have to budge yourself with porn. Pornography is your safe alternative for orgasm. And how that can lead to OCD? If you are having some hard time, you watch too much porn and you ruminate unproductively about "How will ypur next girlfriend look?" "Do you need an girlfriend?" "Why you need a girlfriend?" etc. Your brain after some time become overwhelmed wuth that theme that you ruminate and do nothing to find that girlfriend and can send you error thought "What if i am gay?" And if you reply to that thought with fear you are slowly entering in OCD. So pornography and constant ruminations about girls (without real intentions or some girl you are dating) can indirectly get you into this "Sneaky, but stupid disorder."

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

I feel that. But porn induced erectile dysfunction is real

Jovan Zecevic

Date posted: 4y

@Anonymous Yes, but that is something that is not related to OCD. If you watch porn a lot you subconciously want to your real sex looks like in porn, but that is not possible.

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

@Jovan Zecevic Totally. And I tried a “way too early” exposure with gay porn...didn’t masturbate to it but got EXTREMELY anxious. Now I think I have some sort of PTSD from it. I think that’s what kicked my HOCD into overdrive. Gay intrusive thoughts constantly. I still get erect to women but it’s usually intruded by a gay image. It’s so scary, feels like I’m losing my identity. I just want to marry a beautiful woman without this on my mind

Jovan Zecevic

Date posted: 4y

@Anonymous Gay porn is extreme ERP that is not good for some people. I felt a little bit anxious but a lot disgust on that and a 0% pleasure. Fun fact, when i sticked two fingers do vommit after that sick porn my OCD told me:"You enjoyed that!" This disorder is very absurd 🤣🤣🤣

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

@Jovan Zecevic Did you get anxiety groinal?

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

@Jovan Zecevic And lmfao bro that shit gave me nightmares

Jovan Zecevic

Date posted: 4y

@Anonymous Yes, a lot, but that gronial is sometimes without attention, sometimes i pay attention (when i have anxiety for real dangers, not OCD bullshit 🤣) and sometimes its tickling and funny.

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

@Jovan Zecevic But now it seems as though my groinals affect when I get intimate with women...now it’s like, do I let anxious arrousal run my life? Jeez la weez this shit sucks. I would rather fucking die than do the sick shit I saw with the gay porn

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

I think when I don’t focus on evaluating the looks of a guy, it doesn’t happen. Bro I was a college football player and showered with 100 naked guys at a time, now I’m afraid to open a damn Snapchat from one of my best friends. Shit is terrifying

Jovan Zecevic

Date posted: 4y

If you dont do thing that you was doing before OCD you will never beat that stupid disorder. Beware: He is sneaky...

BF109G-6

Date posted: 4y

I cried reading this

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