It’s INSANE how everything is triggering my latest obsession of being caught for Child pornography, despite not being a pedo. I was on YouTube , and there was a funny video of how dads mess with their daughters boyfriends . This person said that their uncle told their cousins boyfriend, “whatever you do to her I’ll do to you “. Then proceeded to lick the boyfriends face . She referred to the boyfriend as “the kid “, and said that the boyfriend never did anything with the girlfriend while the uncle was around . I think the person wanted to tell a funny story . But someone else said that the uncle had sexually assaulted the boyfriend in the comments after reading the comment . Since the bf was referred to as “the kid”, I’m obsessed with whether this is CP . In Canada , anything counseling someone to do some illegal shit with a child is considered CP. now , I constantly obsess over whether or not comments I see , things I see , are CP or not CP . UGH . Has anyone had similar themes . UGH

booba

Date posted: 4y

That sounds like a terrible and triggering video! It absolutely sounds like it was inappropriate and I’m sorry you had to see that. You did not do anything wrong in watching that YouTube video. The people behaving inappropriately were wrong, and they were extra wrong for posting it to a very public social media. If you were a pedophile, you would not feel this guilt and disgust. Predators do not worry about hurting others, nor do they worry about whether they are predators. Your OCD cares about children and is absolutely disgusted by people who behave that way. It really shows you care about keeping others safe. Your OCD just needs to learn to trust you, you’re a good person who hates even the idea of hurting a child, the idea of being a predator is the worst thing imaginable. I hope you can start to relax, that video was horrible but you didn’t do anything wrong.

lucy.wilefirr

Date posted: 4y

It wasn’t a video though. It was just the comments . I thought it absurd , but I couldn’t even tell whether it was sexual which concerns me . I’m obsessed thst it was CP more than anything else . Not the video ,’there video was just a cute ask Reddit thread , but that specific comment . I think it’s fucked of the uncle , but idk if it’s sexual . So my OCDs just latching onto that .

booba

Date posted: 4y

@Lucy.Wilefire Ohhh okay I understand now! I’ve watched ask Reddit’s before. They’re funny. But yeah I get what the problem is now! I thought the video showed the uncle doing something. That’s not cp. it definitely doesn’t reflect on you in any way, either. The commenter was right that the story is pretty weird and it’s weird to brag about that story, but there was nothing wrong with anything you did. If I heard that story like you did, upon first hearing it I wouldn’t think it was too weird. After the commenter analyzed it a little more, it makes a bit more sense. It’s good that you’re worried about these things, it shows you care about protecting children and the idea of you ever acting like a predator or participating in cp terrifies you.

lucy.wilefirr

Date posted: 4y

@booba Yeah ocd tends to twist things . During a spiral I practically memorized Canada’s CP laws , and OCD twists things and uses pseudo logic which is so problematic . Thanks for helping

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