So now I have another thing that's just confusing me. So I met this one girl back in 9th grade and we were together for a bit then split and became friends. Recently we've been talking alot more and I've actually started to grow some feeling and attraction towards her. She's really beautiful and awesome to get around but my thoughts are making me feel weird. It's like I want a relationship but its like I feel so isolated and alone and it feels like my feelings aren't vailed enough to be in a relationship. I still am dealing with hocd and ocd but it's like I'm just trying to be happy with someone. My thoughts just keep hurting me it's like "What if your in denial or what if you end up hurting yourself and her and what if your just getting with her to hind something about yourself". In trying so hard to not engage but I just feel so empty and sad and it's like weird man. I don't really know what's going on but there's like those void that makes me feels weird and isolated and it's like what if that void is the latent homosexuality coming out and it just feels like this is never going to end because I'm scared of the results and in afraid of doing something in the future that's not me

Ali

Date posted: 4y

I’m kinda going through something like this. I’ve been dating my bf for almost 2 years. I overthink our relationship everyday. Thoughts like is he the right guy for me? Do I want to be in a relationship? Why am I with him? Lots of thoughts that make me question my relationship. Relationship ocd is a real thing and it does affect relationships. I just noticed and now name my thoughts when I have them. I question them to find out why I do question my relationship. I still haven’t found out why myself, but I think it’s more so protecting myself after trauma and past relationships. It makes it hard for me to trust people and to get close to people.

tobious Glover

Date posted: 4y

That's very true because when I was dating my ex the reason we broke up was because of rocd that I didn't realize was there. I'd always ask myself everyday do I like her do I want to be with her how do I know she's the one. And everyday I'd ask her "on a scale of one to ten how much do you like me" and she told me I was very draining. I just had to know if I did and on top of that I would go online and look at love pages to see if this was the emotion I was feeling. Instead of living in the moment I was destroying it because I didn't know what I was going through and after we split the thoughts got worse and worse. I don't have a ocd specialist because my mom doesn't think is ocd she just thinks it's all in my head and we just can't afford one as well. I just want to get back to my life

Ali

Date posted: 4y

Very relatable! Did you ever figure out why you have rocd or why it was triggered? For me I think it’s because of my past relationships I’ve been in and thinking everyone is out to get me and that since every relationship I’ve been in either left or cheated on me, I expect it to happen in my current relationship. Luckily I have someone that understands me. Some days I’ll think wow I’m so lucky to have him by my side, but it’s on and off.

tobious Glover

Date posted: 4y

Mine was also because of my past relationships. I was with this one girl who kept asking me to do almost everything for her and make her happy and it drained me and with my ex I thought if I wasn't doing everything for her then she would break up with me and the fear of her breaking up with me caused me to ask her am im I a good boyfriend or am I doing a good job. I knew she liked me but I just had to keep asking and I had to keep searching up wether I liked her or not. So looking back at it I can tell that this is ocd

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