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I have friends who started dating, ended up getting married and have been together for over 20 years. They never had a moment of "butterflies" in their stomach. When they got married there wasn't even an official proposal. Both their parents asked if they were getting married and they just said "sure." Next thing they know they were planning a wedding. I think this had really strengthened their relationship. If there are less passionate times in their life, they just become best friends again. When they struggle connecting on a personal level, their passion tends to grow. I guess what I am trying to say is that passion and "butterflies" don't have to be there at the beginning of a relationship and you may never feel "butterflies." The important piece is are you connecting? Every couple connects in different ways so, let your relationship unfold how it will and remember to give yourself grace. You may end up with the deepest most meaningful relationship of any kind you have ever had.
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- 2y
@zannaseattle Thank you, I needed to hear this today.
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I have HOCD, and I have the same worries when it comes to dating:( unfortunately our OCD preys on our attractions because it is associated with attraction, but I can assure you that from an outside point of view, your symptoms scream OCD. From what i’ve read, POCD and HOCD often exist alongside ROCD.
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Moreover I didn’t know about ROCD before and only since I know about ROCD and read about the symptoms I have the feelings that I use it and fake my symptoms for my feelings and thoughts towards my relationship. Reading about ROCD first I was like “nah I don’t have any of these symptoms so it can’t be ROCD” and I am afraid that now I have just developed those symptoms because I read about them. I just want to be happy with my boyfriend and habe enough feelings and don’t feel so guilty and constantly thinking about him deserving someone who has more or harder feelings and butterflies and everything, knowing he loves me SO MUCH makes it even harder I HATE IT I just want to be in love with him god damn it. ?
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Thank you. ❤️
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- 22w
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I’m struggling with something I’m afraid to even admit out loud. I’ve been in a long-term relationship with someone I love deeply. He’s kind, safe, and emotionally close to me — and we’ve built a life together. But I keep obsessing over the fact that I don’t feel much sexual attraction anymore. Or maybe… I never truly did? At the beginning, I felt butterflies, excitement, connection — and I assumed that meant I was also attracted to him physically. But now, after reading so much and reflecting more deeply, I’m starting to wonder if I ever truly felt sexual desire in the way I was “supposed to.” Maybe my feelings were more about emotional longing, comfort, and romantic closeness — but not sexual chemistry. And now I don’t know what that means. OCD makes it so much worse. It constantly tells me: – “If you really loved him, you’d want him.” – “You’re leading him on.” – “What if you’re lying to yourself?” – “If you try to fix this and fail, you’ll have to leave.” I feel stuck between wanting to fight for this relationship — and being terrified that trying will just prove it’s hopeless. Has anyone experienced something like this? Can OCD really make you question something so deeply personal? And how do you move forward when even trying feels terrifying? Any thoughts or support would mean the world right now.
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