I keep getting intrusive explicit images of a 12 year old that looks 16. Ugh. And sometimes I look at them out of anxiety but mostly am able to block it . It’s horrible because I’m 17 and don’t wanna like be attracted to a freaking 12 year old this shits scary . I think it’s false attraction because I wasn’t attracted to her when I saw her just shocked but it’s so scary . What if I accidentally fantasize about her , which is sexual abuse !

Yeah people shouldn't be prosecuted for simply coming across it, I agree with you that's. But, it's another thing to fully support such a horrible industry along with sex trafficking. And the kind of people that make their own, pay for it, or literally use morse code to bypass it on regular social sites. Or people that think saving and sharing CP is funny. I think that shit is sick. Unfortunately, I've seen CP shown on Twitter, Instagram and I think YouTube (Idk if videos of children in playlists under a negative context counts under that) and one video on a porn site that looked pretty fucked up but I don't think was real. I totally get your point now. The demand needs to fucking stop. That way there won't be a supply. You can't have one or the other

Yeah abuse would involve unwanted physical contact, at least that how I've always seen it

@BigGip09 Yeah or at the very least involves 2 people.

@mitz I mean checking out children or watching child porn still counts as child abuse though

@Lucy.Wilefire I don't really know what you mean by checking out children. But yeah, CP (honestly porn in general at this point for me) isn't okay

@Lucy.Wilefire I don’t know about that, it’s certainly not good or ok but I don’t think it counts as a form as abuse. And as bad as CP is, it’s not really that bad until you pay for it. (At which point you should spend a few years in jail then a few more in rehab)

@mitz Wait what was that last part? It's not bad unless you pay for it? Not that I really know where one would even find things like that aside from the dark web, but are you saying it isn't bad until one pays for it?

@BigGip09 I can understand that in the sense that someone needs to be actively looking for that stuff and searching it everyday or hosting it for it to be really horrible

@BigGip09 Like I’m just obsessing over whether I did anything morally innapropriste with kids , and whether the attraction is false or real . Like if you have constant explicit images bombarding you in your head , I just wasn’t sure how to react . But looking at the image in my head makes the anxiety go away cuz it tells my mind the feelings and pictures aren’t dangerous but I still feel morally fucked

@BigGip09 Leering at children for sexual pleasure would be ahisive in my opinion

@Lucy.Wilefire It all just sounds like thoughts to me but I can see why it messes with you every single day. I think you need to distract yourself from all the ruminating and the reassurance seeking.

@Lucy.Wilefire Yeah I suppose it would be