HI! I was wondering if anyone else has experienced this? I've had religious OCD since my first massive panic attack aged 10. At that age I had know idea what a Panic Attack was so thought God was punishing me. Now comes the tricky part, I'm an atheist!! I don't actually believe in the thing that terrifies me to the point of multiple hospitalisation 😭😭 Could anyone shed light on this?

I do believe in a higher power, and it's really helped me through some tough times. I just don't conform to any particular religion. But I really do appreciate your comment and I'll speak to my therapist about the possibility that I do perhaps believe. 😊🙏💙

@Miss Lemon Just know that there is a God and Jesus gave his life for you and this is not how it’s supposed to be and you are not being punish. God didn’t send his son to condem us but to literally save us even though we are sinners. We are not perfect.

@NickD Thank you so much, ever since that first panic attack I've been terrified of God. I was convinced that I was the worst person in the world and totally unforgivable. That's when I stopped believing, because at that time I didn't know how else to cope. I'm 27 now and I wish more than anything to take away this guilt and constant fear.

@Miss Lemon Listen to me fear of the Lord is not this type of fear. God tell us over 400 times to be anxious for NOTHING. Rebuke the devil in the name of Jesus and give yourself a break. God knows we are not perfect and no God is not punishing or wants to punish us. He LOVES us unconditionally. He knows that we fall as he is slow to anger. I have similar thoughts and ocd will make You think that it’s God but it is NOT. Dear Heavenly Father I come to you with praise and thanksgiving and I ask that you put your miraculous healing hands upon this persons and all of us struggling with ocd and that you would clear up the fear and confusion in Jesus precious name. Just know that you’re not alone :)

@NickD Thank you ever so much ❤️❤️❤️ I'm going to bookmark this post so can come back and read everything you've said when I need it. ☺️☺️☺️

@NickD You've been a wonderful listener and I hope you know how much it means to me. Even talking to you briefly I feel infinitely better. It means the world to me. Thank you. ❤️

@Miss Lemon I’m so glad :) God bless you. Remember you are not alone. God loves you and you are enough ❤️

Yes definitely! OCD doesn't discriminate when it comes to it's themes. I'm so sorry that you were told this by a Rabbi, I think a lot of people would have been able to shrug it off but our OCD brains are wired differently. And yes definitely your point about the 'What If' is a huge factor in OCD for sure!!