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Mh0204Mh0204
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Hey I’m sorry you’re feeling like this, I know the feeling as I think everyone with ocd does but let me tell you there is hope. I believe God wakes us up & gives us a chance to live for a reason. I’ve been suicidal because of ocd as well so take my word, plan out things you used to do & do as many as you feel achievable that day & keep going. Depression can hit you on top of ocd but don’t let them win, I’m sure you have people around you who you care about, go spend time with them, go into nature & be alone or with a friend. Think about your career, your dream house or your future relationship, if you’re alive these things are capable of being yours if you try inspite of what ocd tells you. I know it’s easier said than done, but there’s always hope. Our brains are not us. Hope & pray you feel better soon
AnonymousAnonymous
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I don’t want to nor can I do any of the stuff that made me happy growing up.
Jbm421Jbm421
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I'm here if you need to talk bro. Believe I know that feeling. I'm in it right now. Hell, I'd be deeper if I didnt decide give myself an hour of no ruminating. I just heard some NOCD advocates talk about HOCD. Kinda brought me up a little. R u still drinking???
AnonymousAnonymous
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Nah 4 drinks was my limit. I care somewhat about my life but only enough to wake up and stay at my house. There isn’t anything that will help me be me again so I don’t care anymore.
Jbm421Jbm421
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@Issac11 I wish I could tell you how to handle the thoughts other than just accepting them. But I'm not doing all that well myself, at least today. I know that feeling of not caring anymore but I cant be like that. My family depends on me too much for me to let that happen.
AnonymousAnonymous
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@Jbm421 Well good luck with that. My life is pretty much done. I even had a thought as I was driving to drive into the ramp cuz my life sucks and I could’ve but I choose not to but it doesn’t matter my life is done with. Not a damn erp will help me out one bit. I already knew that so that’s why it doesn’t matter to me. I don’t matter to anyone and no one matters to me. So it is what it is. All I can do is say sorry for making my families life miserable as well as my neighbors but I can’t control what has happened to me over the years nor do I know how to make it better for anyone.
Jbm421Jbm421
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@Issac11 I'm sorry that it's so bad for you bro. I know ERP can be rough. Dont know you but know that I'm pulling for you. You are a human being and you have value. God bless you bro.
OCD_LemmonaideOCD_Lemmonaide
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This post breaks my heart. I have felt hopeless like this before. Please, hang in there. There are many people with this condition who have hit rock bottom and still managed to eventually get better. I lost my mom who was very dear to me and amazingly I still managed to hang in. I know my words can only do so much and you must be in so much pain but know that I hear you.
AnonymousAnonymous
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Thanks. I’m sorry for your loss. I was feeling better since even though I was watching a basketball game I was able to think about sex with a girl but then felt the need to do it again to prove I could do it again but it just got messed up and now I’m in my head a little more than I want to be again after an hrs work of erp smfh.
AnonymousAnonymous
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*me*
Jbm421Jbm421
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I know it's easy to be negative when this shit hits hard. But we can find positives in life. As fucked up as this whole shitty mess is, we can find diamonds in the rough.
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AnonymousAnonymous
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I have a bad knee😞
Mh0204Mh0204
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Why? If you don’t mind me asking
AnonymousAnonymous
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I have a bad knee😞
AnonymousAnonymous
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And no one cares about me. At least no one I know. I don’t see any one of my family member be like lets hangout and stuff. It’s not their fault it’s mine. Obviously before all this shit happen I was the family to let’s go and do this but it’s not the same anymore.
Mh0204Mh0204
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@Issac11 Ohhhh :( well, I’m pretty sure they do maybe they just don’t know how to express their concerns if you’ve changed because of ocd & you should still try to hang out with them it won’t be the same but think of ocd as an annoying friend that you have to take along with you. I’m sure you have other things you can pursue even if they’re not physical? Or you can find something else, there’s endless potential
AnonymousAnonymous
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