My poem for school... "When the OCD Monster Had Had Enough" It's about the moment my OCD hit it's worst and I knew I needed serious help 3:00 am The monster had had enough It was strong it was hungry and it thought it was tough Burdening misery had barged through my door The bang, bang, bang at my door was too hard to ignore And woke me with the sound of, “Come, come look, at the things to explore.” It was burying itself inside of me preparing to roar “Look, look, look!” it said. “Only a few minutes!” Grabbing the phone beside my bed, covered with fright, too shocked with fear to hear the crickets of the night At this point my body was done, so I just searched up the word “heaven” Without depth and without context, I just searched up “heaven” My emotions felt weak like an uncontrollable train slowly crashing and falling into a creek My my! 40 minutes?! The bang, bang, bang at my door was too hard to ignore I remembered my mom said no more researching after 20 minutes! I sat like a rock on my bed, constantly looking at the clock Blinking my eyes constantly, too tired to walk I waited and waited with no time to sleep, so I could tell my mom sorry for the monster’s critique The OCD monster was furious now, I waited and waited to hear the sound OCD had taken over each space in between my bones OCD had ferociously attacked my heart, my soul, my body’s home I listened and texted my mom, “I must say sorry for the things I’ve done wrong!” It was maybe 6 o’clock now Creak, creak, creak With my eyes darkened and my body weak I realized my mom had woken from her sleep I stepped outside at 7 am now The August morning was busy with children going to school, the air feeling cool My mom holding the dog leash, staring at me with a complexed tone, “Why are you up so early? Are you okay?” But the monster told me to be quiet so all that I could say, “I am just so sorry for the things I’ve done wrong! I researched for more than 20 minutes! Oh you must be so upset!” “Hannah, that was yesterday. I said you could research for 20 minutes yesterday. Not today.”