- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 4y ago
I used to negate those thoughts and ruminate all day to the point where I couldn’t function. I now resist repeating those thoughts like “I don’t want to hurt myself/others” because it’s a compulsion and keeps me in the ocd cycle. Ever since I’ve stopped doing those compulsions the intrusive thoughts have stopped and are barely there :)
hi! i'm the same way except i ruminate like "you wouldn't hurt anyone because __" or "you've never hurt anyone before". i've learned to let the thoughts flow better so i'm not struggling as much anymore (although i've never been diagnosed with ocd it may just be my anxiety and intrusive thoughts), but at first when i wouldn't ruminate i would get SO anxious because i would think that meant that i was agreeing with the thoughts. over time you learn that not ruminating is a lot better even though it may make you feel more anxious at first!
Thank you for your feedback! And by not ruminating; you mean by bluntly not paying any mind to not carrying out any mental reassurance/compulsion pertaining to the Harm OCD in Pure O?
yes exactly! like at first (still is but not as hard) it was really hard because i would ruminate by saying these phrases in my mind without noticing because it became a habit but then whenever i noticed myself saying these i would immediately stop. of course it will feel uncomfortable at first but it really works in the long run :)
I used to ruminate a lot, all day every day...harm and pureO and still fall into the trap sometimes...but not for nearly as long. I'm seeing an NOCD therapist now, but if you're looking for some good advice, check out Ali Greymond on YouTube...but make sure you don't turn her videos into a reassurance compulsion lol. She helped me SO much, and I still listen to her every morning while I walk my dogs.
I used to. Rumination is a voluntary act, it’s a compulsion. Try as hard as you Can to stop it, because you can.
Thank you all for your feedback and advice, it’s greatly appreciated!
Hey guys, I am having the worst HARM OCD episode I have had in a while. I am having disgusting, awful intrusive thoughts about harming others. It feels so real. It feels as if I am about to get up and just do it. The worst bit about it all Is I know I feel distressed and panicked. But where the thoughts are actually happening ( in my head) doesnt feel this feeling. This is making it feel worse as it really does feel like Im just going to do it. I am crying my eyes out because I know im petrified and dont want to hurt anyone im so scared. I have this terrible intrusive feeling in my that feels like its justifying the thoughts. Please can someone talk as I am scared Im crying I dont want know what to do I want this feeling gone I am so scared. I tell myself Id kill myself before hurting anyone else, but would i ? What if I actually do want to kill Please respond Im so scared
Does anyone imagine they are doing their harm thoughts during an action, making you feel like you acted on your thoughts? For example, someone gave me a hug and at the last second I imagined I was touching something I shouldn’t during the hug? I want to make it clear it’s something I have zero desire to do! But the problem is, I thought it on purpose and it makes me sick !! Obviously nothing happened but my mind is telling me that was me trying to do it. Even though it was physically impossible to do. Am I a monster or could this be OCD? I’m freaking out and don’t want to be here anymore. I feel like I’m the exception and that this isn’t OCD. I know I post about this stuff a lot but I’m struggling and don’t know what to do.
Okay so I’ve dealt with harm OCD from the beginning. Started off with harming my kids, going to jail and then harming myself. The harm to myself stuck around for a long time. Then it went away and other themes picked up but it keeps coming back. This is like the third time it’s come back and every single time it comes back it feels worse. It feels like this is the time something is going to happen. Has anyone ever dealt with this? With old themes constantly coming back and feeling more real? Please any advice is greatly appreciated. Thanks
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