- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 4y
I used to negate those thoughts and ruminate all day to the point where I couldn’t function. I now resist repeating those thoughts like “I don’t want to hurt myself/others” because it’s a compulsion and keeps me in the ocd cycle. Ever since I’ve stopped doing those compulsions the intrusive thoughts have stopped and are barely there :)
hi! i'm the same way except i ruminate like "you wouldn't hurt anyone because __" or "you've never hurt anyone before". i've learned to let the thoughts flow better so i'm not struggling as much anymore (although i've never been diagnosed with ocd it may just be my anxiety and intrusive thoughts), but at first when i wouldn't ruminate i would get SO anxious because i would think that meant that i was agreeing with the thoughts. over time you learn that not ruminating is a lot better even though it may make you feel more anxious at first!
Thank you for your feedback! And by not ruminating; you mean by bluntly not paying any mind to not carrying out any mental reassurance/compulsion pertaining to the Harm OCD in Pure O?
yes exactly! like at first (still is but not as hard) it was really hard because i would ruminate by saying these phrases in my mind without noticing because it became a habit but then whenever i noticed myself saying these i would immediately stop. of course it will feel uncomfortable at first but it really works in the long run :)
I used to ruminate a lot, all day every day...harm and pureO and still fall into the trap sometimes...but not for nearly as long. I'm seeing an NOCD therapist now, but if you're looking for some good advice, check out Ali Greymond on YouTube...but make sure you don't turn her videos into a reassurance compulsion lol. She helped me SO much, and I still listen to her every morning while I walk my dogs.
I used to. Rumination is a voluntary act, it’s a compulsion. Try as hard as you Can to stop it, because you can.
Thank you all for your feedback and advice, it’s greatly appreciated!
Basically long story short, ive been dealing with anxiety for a very long time all my life I'm 23 now but about 5 months ago my anxiety started to get really and I overthink a ton and get worried to easily. So my chest hurt for a while from stress at work made me worry why it was hurting, then me worrying and thinking worse case scenarios was making it worse. So i and to go to the doctor and got diagnosed properly with anxiety and I have a med now that I take when I really need it called hydroxyzine but I also have another med that is Zoloft that I have been taking for a about a month now, to help with my intrusive thoughts I have sometimes i only get them when im stressed or when I'm by myself or when i just overthink in general, my loneliness depression is one of the reasons for my anxiety because I wish I had someone as in partner wise to love me and for me to love them. But anyways I've had intrusive thoughts about possibly hurting myself and family, or even my dog. Ive never acted on any of my thoughts in the past and I don't want to but I have had anxiety attacks when everything feels to real and really scares me. I constantly have the thought of am I crazy or am I becoming crazy and stuff and I've done a lot of looking stuff in the past about symptoms but most of them are identical to what anxiety is so it's hard to tell the difference. It's been probably 2 weeks since we last talked. I've been mostly doing good. But I just was wondering if had a little Harm OCD intrusive thought happen yesterday that targeted my Aunt at work she was complaining all day and when it got closer to the end of the shifts for us. I was already annoyed with a situation that happened earlier in the work day. But she came into my department and then went back over to hers and I said it out loud to myself and said you better get back over there or I'll, I tried to say something else because the word I was going to say was kill you. Obviously I don't but that's what my intrusive thought wanted me to say. And made me think thats why i got to hurt her to stop her complaing So the rest of the night I was saying she is safe I am safe I'm control, like this is just anxiety lying to you, it's just because I'm tired and got annoyed earlier. I can't tell if it was working or not because I was so tired and just wanted to go home. But after work her and I spent time together at our house she was on the one couch and I was on the other with a bunch of our dogs in the living room. I tried to keep my mind off of what happened, and I was fighting some stomach achyness already. But I obviously don't want to hurt her and we had conversations just fine. But I went to my other aunt house at night after work to go to bed because she has to watch my aunts dogs because my other aunt and family is on vacation. But anyways I'm trying to get over that word Kill, that word is what is scarring me and sticking. Like my anxiety is lying saying kill, or basically do harm. I don't want to do anything bad but I'm trying to shake that feeling and stickiness of that word. I'm just so scared and worried.
What if this and what if that. It’s all harm related and the urges feel so real I just can’t stand this anymore. Does anyone have any advice that has conquered OCD harm intrusive thoughts. I have them 24/7 and they are so scary.
Hey, I suffer from harm ocd and I feel as if it’s non stop everything I do everyday I believe I killed someone I believe it’s harm ocd and false memory but like today I went to the store and saw a older lady and my head thinks of images of me pushing them or killing then and right after that thought I feel as if I done it then the rest of the day I ruminate replaying everything. I know erp and I should just accept the thought and let it go but it’s not easy and I feel as if i really hurt or killed someone and I don’t want to go to jail for something I don’t want to do . Any tips would be appreciated I don’t know how to accept and move on when it feels so real that I did something!
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