Hi guys, I’m new here but I’ve really been needing it do I actually suffer with ocd? I’ve been told I overreact which makes me think, but I know I’m straight or that’s what I want to be anyways and I can’t seem to stop thinking and fearing of becoming a lesbian or attracted to another sex, and everytime I tell myself that I’m straight I worry and it makes me feel very uncomfortable same with my relationship I feel as if “do I love my partner” can someone help with tips?

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Honestly I seem to understand much more about it now! It wasn’t too long at all, that’s literally all I needed. Because I try and forget about it but then I remeber silly things that I’ve thought and it gets bad and then I try and imagine my attraction to my boyfriend and boys and see if that’s how I feel about girls, but I don’t and I don’t know why I do it. I can say if suffered with this for at least a year, and I haven’t been able to live without thinking about it once. If I was gay, I’m not scared of anyone knowing at all nothing like that I would tell everyone I’m not bothered, but I feel deep down I know I’m not but my mind just doesn’t want to accept it.

@lilyx yeahh I understand you. Comparing is not the healthiest thing u can do. Because your ocd will try to trick you. It's annoying because it also try's to mess up the relationship that you have with your boyfriend. But remember that theses going to be better days, emotions arent constant it's okay to feel sad.And about living this this daily, the thoughts dont go away for a while so hang in there, do mindfulness and remember that thoughts are just thoughts. Your brain has an obsession which isnt healthy for you, so try be gentle with the way you respond to them emotionally. Better to just embrace the thoughts and tell them no matter what is thrown at you, your in control always. I hope you see progress sooner than later. One quick thing, expectations of recovery also can hurt if you think that it's like all just going to go away. A realistic expectation is just reduced anxiety and feeling more in control.

@bea238 Yeah thank you for helping me honestly. I think I was going through a bad time of it, because I’m feeling much better now than I have been the last few days. Also, I know I’m not attracted to the same sex but is it normal to think about things like that? And apparently it’s like having a fear of some things, like I have a fear of becoming gay and it decided to act on it.

@lilyx I dont want to reassure you but if u learn about ocd, those answers will come. Glad that your feeling better👍

rocd and hocd for about a year now and I'm just about to make it to my 1 year anniversary with my boyfriend

@bea238 Yeah. Do you suffer with hocd aswell? Because that seems to be the worse one for me, I can’t feel comfortable around my friends with this and like I guess if I found a girl pretty it gives me a response and I’ll over think it even though I know you can do that, but I know I’m straight but how do I get it to go away?

@lilyx yess I've been through this, so bad I couldnt even look in the mirror scared I'd find my self pretty and I told myself I needed to hate my body too. Messed up for sure. I realised I distanced from bestfriend because I completely lost the concept of friendship and intrustive thoughts would just attack every. So I just spoke to my boyfriend for a while which is great, love talking to him but I'm quite social and it wasnt how i wanted to go about my life. Friends are very important and ocd was taking it away from me. I got to a point where I said to myself no matter what intrusive thoughts I get I'll go hang out if my bestfriend asks. I had mini panic attacks just before seeing her on days we did but now I can say it's better. Obviously, I will always remember this part of my life but I realise that theres more to me and I can take ownership of my thoughts. Finding girls pretty is okay, we are pretty.I'd advice you to try improve the relationship with urself because mine complete went to shit and make ocd worse because I didnt have respect for myself and doubt literally everything. If I taken the time to take care of my self mentally. Remember thoughts are just thoughts, you dont need to assign them any value and meaning. think of thoughts as just advertisements, ads. they are everywhere, instagram,YouTube websites extra and most of us hardly even both with them because they arent important. The thoughts about rocd and hocd can be treated as such, but the reason we give them importance is because orientation and relationships is something that we see identifies us. OCD attackes our morals, beliefs, values and identity, parts to us that we before wouldnt ever question. I'd like to just add without reassurance that your identity wont ever leave you. I lost myself during this but I am going to get there again. To a new me which incorporates all of old me but with the new found strength and knowledge someone gains with mental disorders. You have to believe (and put the effort in) that you can help urself. Our mind is so powerful, and we should try to learn to use if for our benefit.