Anonymous
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can I talk to you about it?
lel.ialel.ia
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Of course!
AnonymousAnonymous
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It's my fault!!....I should of found an OCD Therspist earlier!!....I was scared to go to a therapist during the pandemic!!...And I didn't think I could afford it!!!
lel.ialel.ia
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Sounds hard but find someone to talk to about it! Even just on here it helps I promise z
AnonymousAnonymous
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I was arguing with my dad on the phone and had a rage thought when the cat was on my lap....I was overstimulated.....I always have a coat and flannel shirt between me and the cat in case of groinal if she decides she wants to sit on my lap......I was arguing with my dad because I had Covid and had a rage thought and I pushed up like 2 inches and the cat jumped off...
lel.ialel.ia
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Which part of your story upsets you the most? Is it your cat jumping off?
AnonymousAnonymous
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I will talk about it another time.....something else happened......I was crazy and "checked"..... you sound smart and understanding though.....I am very religious but was feeling crazy and "checked".....if someone thought it was bad I would be distraught.
AnonymousAnonymous
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but it was kind of a sexual thought too.......and I was worried that I "felt something" in my groin area when the cat was on my lap and around my groin...
lel.ialel.ia
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Ahh I think I understand a bit more. I feel like it’s one of those things that the more you think/worry about it the more it feels like you might be feeling something
AnonymousAnonymous
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@lel.ia I decided to start following you....are you on here often?.....If this continues to drive me nuts I might bring it up another time.....
lel.ialel.ia
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@Anonymous Only just joined but I think I will be on here a lot
lel.ialel.ia
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And if it helps I don’t think it’s bad at all :)
AnonymousAnonymous
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I feel like I said more than most.......see I had a "bad day"...and don't know how to get over it......maybe you are uncomfortable because your not a trained counselor........this is the worst thing that's ever happened.......I am looking at everything more critical......I quit taking supplements........this is crazy......sorry if I am making you uncomfortable........I am not even sleeping right!!
AnonymousAnonymous
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but I checked.....I actually checked 3 times because I was nuts that day......I even had a thought I would never check if it was a kid...........I will leave it at this....I am leaving out an important detail that is driving me nuts....and the sadder part is my cat was scared of me for like 5 days.
AnonymousAnonymous
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I never did anything like that before and was scared if I told a counselor they would want to take my cat away!
lel.ialel.ia
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@Anonymous Well it sounded like just an accident to me they would only think the cat was in danger if you hurt it on purpose
AnonymousAnonymous
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@lel.ia right....that is true.....but I am not getting over it....I had a bad day......never never take supplements.
AnonymousAnonymous
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@lel.ia Well.....sorry I am mad.......I can't believe it happened........I mad at God......It was horrible day and it's my fault.......I kept checking...I am crazy......I am crazy!!!....I wanted to make sure I didn't feel anything!!!...Why the hell??....What is wrong with me?.......sorry....I might be one of the crazier people on here.......My OCD has went nuts since Covid started.........I am sorry I don't mean to run you off....I don't even know you but you seem smart.....I think I literally popped a gasket thst day....I kept checking.....I don't think that is normal......I can't even sleep right.....I have felt deeply bad about this......My OCD has gotten so bad since Covid started......sorry, I hope I am not running you off.....its been over a month and I am not getting over this....
lel.ialel.ia
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@Anonymous It’s not crazy to check! Just part of the compulsions that come with OCD!
AnonymousAnonymous
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Thank you for replying...I would like to stay in touch......you have helped a lot....I am sorry I am not sure I have said a ton that's helped you but I was really suicidal a couple days ago.....what you said helped......I still have problems....but maybe I can figure how to be ok.....sorry if this is selfish............I am still distraught though ...one of the checkings I did too much....or something bad happened......I didn't mean for what happened it was an accident.........I hope I am not freaking you out........you have your OCD world as well that I know nothing of.......I am not sure how close you are to talking to an OCD therapist....and I am not sure what brought you here.....I hope you are in good spirits.
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