- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 4y ago
Harm ocd is probably my second most prevalent theme right now, aside from contamination. I have seen a few posts about harm ocd, you just have to look for them. I think you can filter what shows up on your feed, so you can see those relevant to your themes.
I have perfectionism as my first theme and next in line is harm OCD.
You can filter what shows up as that’s what I do. Also, JG, I have harm ocd mostly towards my wife but from time to time towards others. Ocd loves to target her though and when I was bad off I would get relief unfortunately when it didn’t target my wife. Mine started with a nightmare about stabbing her last May at the age of 36 late onset and has changed my life in a way in which I wish never happened.
Thank you all for your feedback and letting me know about filtering my feed! @Dre83 I’m very sorry to hear that you’re going through what you’re going through and have been ever since/for as long as you have been! I completely hear you when it comes to changing our lives; my childhood Harm OCD came back with a vengeance that has hospitalized me and debilitated/handicapped me ever since. Every day/all day is a fight!
Dang JG sorry to hear that. Yeah it does seem like it’s a fight every day for sure
Hey guys, I am having the worst HARM OCD episode I have had in a while. I am having disgusting, awful intrusive thoughts about harming others. It feels so real. It feels as if I am about to get up and just do it. The worst bit about it all Is I know I feel distressed and panicked. But where the thoughts are actually happening ( in my head) doesnt feel this feeling. This is making it feel worse as it really does feel like Im just going to do it. I am crying my eyes out because I know im petrified and dont want to hurt anyone im so scared. I have this terrible intrusive feeling in my that feels like its justifying the thoughts. Please can someone talk as I am scared Im crying I dont want know what to do I want this feeling gone I am so scared. I tell myself Id kill myself before hurting anyone else, but would i ? What if I actually do want to kill Please respond Im so scared
Does anyone imagine they are doing their harm thoughts during an action, making you feel like you acted on your thoughts? For example, someone gave me a hug and at the last second I imagined I was touching something I shouldn’t during the hug? I want to make it clear it’s something I have zero desire to do! But the problem is, I thought it on purpose and it makes me sick !! Obviously nothing happened but my mind is telling me that was me trying to do it. Even though it was physically impossible to do. Am I a monster or could this be OCD? I’m freaking out and don’t want to be here anymore. I feel like I’m the exception and that this isn’t OCD. I know I post about this stuff a lot but I’m struggling and don’t know what to do.
There are times my harm ocd has me convinced that my feelings of self harm or suicide and harm are real and that any moment I could commit the act on myself or my family. Is there anyone who can chime in on this. I feel like all the time I want to leave run away or avoid my family because of these thoughts. Like I shouldn’t be around my children and I don’t trust myself.
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