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Congrats to you that is a huge accomplishment! I skin pick as well and know how hard it is to resist the urge.
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Thank you!
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Scares can definitely be thought of the same way! They are a representation of our individual experiences. If you had an identical twin, or even an exact clone- they would not have the same scars you do. They make you unique, and show your growth as a person
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Thank you for this! That’s a great way of thinking about it.
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Good job,cheers to you,keep it up! Hope you can learn to love yours scars,I have some too and extra wrinkles (on one side of my mouth from cheek biting)...they are part of us and our journey and should remind us how strong we are to deal with it,because it is really tough,so let's be proud that we do somehow deal and live with it! How did you manage to get better? My skin picking got better (not sure why) but I am cheek biting a lot which I think is similar. I find it so hard to do something against it because I do not have a direct thought linked to it..(like with my ROCD) where exposures are at least theoretically easy to come up with...
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I still have a way to go with embracing and celebrating my scars, though I think this post will help me there! However, I am good at pampering my wounds and scars from picking. It’s like both a literal and symbolic expression of healing. Literally healing my wounded skin, and symbolically an expression of my mind healing and showing love to my skin instead of only pain. Seriously congrats on not picking and rewarding with a manicure! And using that manicure to keep it going! 🎉💪🏼💜
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I’ve been thinking a lot about how OCD changes the way we see ourselves, but I recently realized that I am not my thoughts. Just because a thought pops up doesn’t mean it’s true or that it defines me. I’ve started learning how to see OCD for what it is—just a disorder trying to trick me—and I’ve become stronger in dealing with it. Has anyone else here had a similar realization? How do you handle these thoughts when they show up?
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