Bro what the hell So I was starting to get over my hocd when my mom just told me my younger brother is bisexual and is in a relationship with a guy. When she said that my anxiety went through the roof because I'd never thought he'd go that way. He said he was having the same thoughts but acted upon it and it's scaring me. I've been thinking like yo I had thoughts but I didn't want to have them nor did I enjoy them. There nasty and upsetting. I finally met this one girl and I think we have a connection that's great and I want to be with her. But it's like I can't because I don't want to hurt her or make her believe I'm thinking about doing those things when in reality I don't want to do those things. I just can't physically get an erection from a dude unless there's a girl first and even when the thought switchs I get turned off really quick. Last night this gay guy who I knew in 9th grade asked he could suck my d*** and I denied the hell outta him and my anxiety went through the roof on that. I'm so freaking confused man like bruh how could he think things that I had it makes no sense. How the hell is this possible man 😱🤕

MRK92

Date posted: 4y

Hey man, I’m there too.... Here’s the thing, your younger brother is bisexual, your straight, and I’m attracted to the lucky charms leprechaun.... lol Straight folks, Bisexuals,Gays,Lesbians all want you to believe they are “ born that way” but the truth is sexuality is like your favorite flavor of ice cream, what you like is what you like. I know this is going to explode your anxiety because it does mine, and your searching for an answer, but the fact is there isn’t one. Similar to religious beliefs, sexuality is very personal to you. Because the LBGT community is so politically and socially protected and put on a soap box no one will dare speak ill of them. But they’re no different than straight people with preferences. What your into is what YOUR into. Don’t worry. This is coming from someone who’s figuring it out and has been in years of therapy and has been dealing with these worries their whole life.

tobious Glover

Date posted: 4y

Im understanding that now and it's kinda scary but I think I can trust myself

PinkLotus

Date posted: 4y

Haha this made me pretty anxious too 😅I always thought the thoughts of people with so-ocd were very different from someone actually coming out.

tobious Glover

Date posted: 4y

See that's what I'm saying because see he thought those things were arousing and he wanted to see if it was true but see to me that ether A disgusted me or B it doesn't do anything. Like bruh it makes no sense to me how he would say that because I have now 4 family members who are attracted to the same sex and they said oh I had the same thing but you see we didn't tho because I'm just different. What's different from me and them is that I've showed signs of OCD as a kid and even in elementary up to now but it just wasn't as bad but all my stuff is constant on how I feel ever since the first thought of turing gay occurred. They've all had experience growing up with the same sex and never knew until they tried it out. But I don't want to do that

tobious Glover

Date posted: 4y

They did

PinkLotus

Date posted: 4y

@tobious Glover But I mean they wanted to try it out , we don’t. And they don’t obsess over it and feel as anxious and scared and grossed out as we do. I think it’s normal for everyone to question their sexuality at one point or another or even be curious, but we don’t have to expirement if we don’t want to thankfully :)

tobious Glover

Date posted: 4y

@Purplejely13 Thank y'all for understanding for real. Like I knew I wasn't ever attracted to men in that way. The thing is I tried doing it but it was not out of curiosity or comfortability it was outta fear and anxiety. It's just something I never wanted to do thank God and Im understanding now that it's fine to question your sexuality but as far as seeing if these things are true and expirmenting then no, there's just no desire to forfill those thoughts if that makes sense. As a kid I always wanted a wife and as a junior in highschool my values and beliefs are the same. I'm fine with people being attracted to the same sex but as far as me doing stuff with them is a huge no

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