Can someone talk to me???....Please be atleast 18....preferably over 20.....its regarding an animal. I am trying to fight this in prayer as well as talking about it......BUT the problem is SOMETHING actually did happen (I DID something that wasn't really on purpose)......I just don't know if my perception is 100% correct of the situation...I think its atleast 50% correct.......I wish someone could walk me off the ledge....I am suicidal... I NEEDED this place like a year ago......I have probably did one of the worst real event OCD's.......I guess if it's really bad sometimes people don't even feel shame.....I don't know though....I think I literally am kind of crazy....I am so mad at God. Can someone talk to me??

This was just like a month and a half ago......Late January....... I want to talk about it....but I am distraught about it.....I can't believe life........I can't believe this happened.......atleast 50% of people would like what the hell???.....If it was a kid....I could of been reported probably.......I didn't mean for what happened.....I didn't think the cat would react like that...I can't get an image out of my head......I hope the cat was just startled but you can't talk to a cat...

@Anonymous I am not even "new" to OCD.....I knew I had OCD and something weird happened and I checked.........I have been suicidal everyday...I can't get this memory out of my head!!

@Anonymous Yes I have heard of All or Nothing thinking.....

@Anonymous If your suicidal I highly urge you to talk to a professional. Good people do bad things intentionally or unintentionally. We need to learn from it, not repeat it and grow. No human being is perfect, everyone will at one point in their life make a mistake big or small. Im not sure what you did exactly but I'm sure its not irredeemable. OCD will make you feel like its irredeemable. Since its about an animal, do you know how many poachers are there? How many people get involved in things like dog fighting? Do they feel the remorse you feel? No they don't give a damn. Try not to be hard on yourself. Please see a therapist or go to the ER if you feel like you are gonna harm yourself You will get through this

I'm pretty sure your cat is healthy and happy. This seems like reassurance seeking so I wont try to do that a lot. It seems like just ocd and magnification of what happened. Again, seeing a professional therapist is the right way to go because of how much distress this is causing you.

@Artme Thank you for your time......thank you for your words......maybe it isn't good to do all the time but you helped me off the ledge........you seem like a person if you got the education could be an OCD therspist.......I already feel 50% better emotionally about this.

Physical arousal for men is not the same as sexual arousal. It can happen due to the clothing, friction or just a ton of hormones. Also can be caused by pressure against the urethra(like when we wake up in the morning and haven't used the restroom yet) OCD can also cause groinal responses. So your just in that spiral of what ifs, rumination and guilt. Try to play tetris, this is my favourite way to stop the obsessive thought processes