So I have a crush on this girl (idk if I do or not ) but then I looked at her profile Pic where she was wearing shorts and I just looked at her leg , I’m not sure if I was attracted to her profile picture or not , and then realized that she hadn’t changed her profile pic from grade 9 and we are in grade 11 now . When I realized I stopped looking at her profile picture . She’s 14 in that and I’m 17, and she’s on my class so I’m freaking out . I mean she’s facing back in that photo , And when I looked again knowing her age I felt nothing . I feel like this means I’m a pedophile . Idk if I was looking at the profile picture with sexual intentions or not . Ugh

I mean as a compulsion I tried to check if she looks 14 in her grade 9 photo and she does but I wasn’t attracted to her . Then I was looking through the grade 9s in the yearbook as ERP and it went horribly wrong . I saw a boy who looked good. Like just had good feautures. Looked anywhere between 14/16 but was 14. I glanced at him and kept going but then glanced at him again and had the thought “he’s cute then WAIT SHIT he’s 14!” I don’t even actually find him attractive wtf was that . Like idk what’s going on with me like I’m going insane

@Lucy.Wilefire The fear of being a pedophile is typical for people with OCD, I had it too and I knew people who had this fear too

You know, you can find someone beautiful without being physically attracted to them

@French coccinelle That’s true . I’m just trying to find meaning behind that glance Because the thought in my head was oh he’s cute and he could be anywhere between 14-16 and I’m 17. So that’a why in scared I lgeinumetly found him cute although he still has some boyish features . So I’m scared I checked him out on an impulse

@Lucy.Wilefire Plus OCD has this proof . I found this boy who was 18 but I thought looked 15, he had very boyish features but was gorgeous looking . My friends thought he looked his age tho . And then he smiled and I felt something weird and I’m pretty sure that was attraction even though he looked youngish . Idk that feels like proof

@Lucy.Wilefire Even if he was 14-16 and you 17 it's okay

@French coccinelle This dudr was actually 14 tho that’s why I’m so scared that i checked him out

@Lucy.Wilefire And the other dude that I was talking about actually does look 17, ig I’m just generally anxious on who I like . Idk what it means with the 14 year old