My ocd tells me I shouldn’t be forgiven for childhood sex play because I was older than than my sibling. It’s so hard I feel like I don’t deserve to move on with my life and should die. Even though my sibling loves me and talks to me all the time.

Do you know what erp you should be doing? If not I can help because I have been working with my therapist on this

@Justmesadly Was this for OP?

@BigGip09 Yes ,I’ve already told you

@Justmesadly Oh yeah I remember you. Yes you've been very helpful, thank you. Can I ask you a question though?

@BigGip09 Sure I’m not a therapist but I can try to help

@Justmesadly i too would like to hear suggestions from u..bcoz I'm doing ERP on my own without any guidance ,it will be nice to get suggestions . My theme is real event, Iam not confessing compulsively, I haven't confessed to many people too.but since u have a therapist, u might have some helpful tips for me.. 3yrs ago , when I was 16 I involved in sex chat with a stranger through a fake account.she was married , but fell for the beautifulman in my dp..it was a actors picture. I hide my identity and involved in sex chat with her..after some weeks , she found that the account was fake, I blocked her and never contacted her since..Also she had sent me her semi nude pics(without face) on my request..3months ago I got realisation on my mistake , I checked her fb..she seems like a happy person, enjoying life with family, chilling..but Iam stuck with OCD, thinking ,how bad my action was, how it effected her life, feelings like I don't deserve happiness,shame,guilt ,everything..I am ERP now..not responding to any thoughts..Earlier I did ERP for 3 days, anxiety went down.but soon I felt something empty inside me , back to the rumination , and I'm back in this OCD cycle again..shit

@Aeegon You have we met before? Because my situation is literally the same only it wasn't nudes, I didn't fake anything, and I was 17.

@Aeegon Sorry I’m not a therapist so I have no idea what to tell you to do for that for erp

@Justmesadly I think we're better off with that answer honestly. A given answer would just be reassurance.

@BigGip09 Helping someone come up with an erp excerise isn’t giving reassurance. I wasn’t gonna give reassurance of course!

@Justmesadly Sorry, it's really hard to note what is or isn't a reassurance. I have trouble with that with compulsions too. But thanks for trying to come up with ERP exercises. I think you told me you suffer from real event. How do you do ERP?

@BigGip09 U just triggered my anxiety even more😪😂.

@Aeegon How so? By relating to your event? Or was it the no given answer thing?

@BigGip09 Yes.we have met before🤝

@Aeegon Great! Hello and good morning/afternoon/evening. Good to see you :)

@BigGip09 by saying,, u didn't fake anything..that's the only reason that I'm trapped with this OCD.if I haven't faked my identity, probably I would be normal like everyone else.

@Aeegon You were still young like I was. Maybe you just had low self esteem. Maybe you just felt insecure. You are normal. I didn't mean to offend you with that. I apologize. I wasn't trying to use it against you. My situation is just a little different that's all.

@BigGip09 Yah.its not ur problem.. we neet to get triggered in ERP for recovery, u just helped me with an exposure now❤️.

@Aeegon I did? I had no idea. Thanks. I'd like to do ERP myself but I just don't know how.

@BigGip09 1) let the thought/memory/feelings come,but u shouldnot respond to it.. initially it's difficult,u might get very anxious..but keep doing that 2)get exposed to ur fears Eg: if u have cheated someone in past..and now u think that u did a crime..then u should willingly read news of people doing the same action and getting arrested for (cheating,murderer etc..) it surely will trigger u , instead of responding to the anxiety ,u should let it come .avoid rumination during that exposure..let the anxiety reach its peak,without u ruminating .. 3) use each anxious situation as an exposure

@Aeegon Over time, u feel less anxious on these exposures..u might even feel no anxiety.

@Aeegon Right now I don't feel any tbh