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I know we aren't supposed to do reassurance, but Jesus loves you more than we can ever fathom. He knows every hair on your head. OCD makes everything very confusing and hard, we doubt the slightest things and second guess do much. Just know that even though we have intrusive thoughts, doesn't mean me and you are horrible people. Jesus loves you so much. I hope this helps, I too have pure ocd and scrupulosity, some days are bad, some days are good.
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The funny thing is I should probably be saying this to you....you guys would laugh if you knew how old I was.......my brain has fallen apart a lot this year....yeah, I know it says he loves me.....a lot of bad things have happened to me...but it is actually worse if you've done something weird/bad...the guilt is terrible....I am not sure how much OCD is blowing this up..I am sure a little but my cat acts different toward me....its terrible.....just something that happened in 2-3 seconds........I probably need to shut up....U will probably make someone else feel suicidal.....all it tskes is a couple minutes of being impulsive/compulsive---not thinking straight to change your whole world......its crazy.....I FELT I HAD TO CHECK....it was OCD lying to me!!!!.....sorry if I am stressing you out...
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@Anonymous I meant I will probably make someone feel suicidal.
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@Anonymous Can you let me know what it was that you had to check?
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I don't understand about the re-assurance thing.....I asked for re-assurance about 10 years ago about a thing and it got me through about 10 years until this happened.....I was majorly stressed out about what happened 10 years ago too.......I am glad I got re-assurance from a counselor to be honest.....It put my mind at ease........I worked on my nutrition a lot and got a good amount better 7ntil this horrible year.
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What is the thing that is stressing you? What is the incident(s)
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I think I talked to before...I am the one that was kind of crazy last night....I think Morpheus understands me......I don't know know how to explain it....I tslked a lot about it on here...but some days tslking about it I feel like "its not safe for work"......I just feel like the devil got me one day.......Its hard to explain......my intent was not to hurt the cat!
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@Anonymous I know some of it but id like to know more, that could help me to help you better
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@anthonys Are you over 18?...I have to ask.....this doesn't involve a kid or anything.. it's just a personal rule of mine.
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@Anonymous Yeah I am
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@anthonys serious?..ok I hope you are being honest because I don't want to get into trouble. My OCD has gotten horrible through this pandemic right? I was broke down arguing with my dad ...I have pet OCD and the cat was on my lap.....(I always had a coat and a flannel shirt between me and the cat)....My dad was pissing me off because he was running me down and I had a rage thought and pushed up like 2 inches...not very far with the cat on my lap (with a coat and flannel shirt)...which probably wasn't that bad but I felt something on my groin and felt HORRIBLE about it.......I was so ashamed I did that... Then I remember just feeling this stuff on my groin and for some reason I had to make sure that the cat couldn't feel my groin (with a coat and flannel shirt between me and the cat) I checked a few times and it wasn't good enough....it didn't feel right....
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@Anonymous there is a little more to it........I never had that rumination and obsession where I had to keep checking.......and yes there is a little more to it...The first 3 times I checked I don't the cat felt anything.....I wasn't trying to make the cat feel something...I wanted to make sure I didn't feel anything........this is sticky/messy......I hope you are over 18 and being honest.....this is more open than most people on here even talk about but I can't take it...I need peace.....maybe I really am crazy.......
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@Anonymous This doesn't sound like a major thing imo. Like I can't say you definitely did something wrong here. Sounds somewhat like the cat touched your thing and then you got an erection from it. That's probably a biological reaction to stimulation. Also, what exactly did you check? And what kind of cat is it? I have two cats and they sometimes make me happy
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@Anonymous I wasn't trying to hurt the cat....serious.....
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@Anonymous I'm 20. I had a pretty bad issue tonight, not OCD related but fear. I take medications and I suffer. I can see that you are having a hard time, I see some of myself in you
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@Anonymous What exactly did you check? Please make an attempt to share that with me? Would you like me to share a part(s) of something I've done that I'm ashamed of if that'll help you feel better?
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@Anonymous it was some crazy check thing...SERIOUS
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@anthonys I am a lot older than you and I guess I am a bit of a dipshit........What medication are you on?.... I am on Perphenazine and a month before this happened I was begging the psychiatrist to put me back on clomipramine.
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@anthonys My checking was pushing up when the cat was on my lap....even though I had a coat and flannel shirt.
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@Anonymous I hope I am not making you mad.
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@anthonys are you still around Anthony?.....I hope I didn't make you mad.....you sound like a smart person.....I know I am being selfish I am wrapped up in my head....I guess I am sick....
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@Anonymous Try sitting with the thought and not act on it. Lately I've noticed if I just don't react to it as intensely as I normally would, I start to feel less guilty. Not everything we do is sinful. If you want, reconsider following my Instagram.
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@anthonys I will reconsider it........what medication are you on?...does it help?
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@Anonymous I'd rather not disclose my medications on here, but I feel like one of them in particular is helping me. Some point after I started taking it, I started to get less stressed sometimes about things. I can't say with a definitiveness that it gets better, but I can say that I've improved. Don't let this be the end for you. Keep going
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@anthonys ok....I think your smart but I am not even sure how much emotional intelligence I have......I am not even sure how to process this....its been 2 months.
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@Anonymous I have a difficult time with my emotions. Let it sit. Try not reacting to it. See if it dwindles.
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@anthonys I checked out your instagram....you look like a good dude.......not that I need to give a lot of advice but I think part of this is nutrition....something is off with my brain...I think vitamins from salads help.....sometimes even eating pizza my brain feels better.....but maybe that is just me........Dr.Amen Clinics...can do a brain scan........but yeah I think I need medicstion......sorry I am adhd too really bad right now.
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@Anonymous In my scenario, medication was pretty much a necessity. Don't be afraid to seek it out. You can get that help, and there are resources out there. There's a hotline I can call when necessary. I see a social worker. You don't have to fight this on your own. Try listening to the song I'll find you by Lecrae ft. Tori Kelly
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@anthonys right.....I was really suicidal.......I have Christian music always on...........btw...my cat is a tortoiseshell......I got lucky that I found it at the humane society....tortoiseshell cats are kind of like calicos......its one of the prettier cat breeds....almost like a burmese......thank you for talking to me.......maybe I can talk to you more on here.....
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@Anonymous I hope that I was able to help. And don't be afraid to love your cat. I love my cats and they sometimes help me out.
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talked to you before...
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Man we all do stupid and wonder why and sometimes we just cant rationalize. Best thing to do is to stick to your values and live your life the best you can. Sure you messed but everyone does.
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